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YUSNIZA, yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
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Whee! I'm enjoying my weekends to the fullest now. Because, starting from Monday, I shall start doing my revisions and research for the CD since it's the only project that doesn't requires group work. I watched The Butterfly and Ayat-ayat Cinta at youtue yesterday, and my oh my, I cried while watching BOTH movies. Am I very emotional or what?

Ayat-ayat cinta is a little draggy(?) and the storyline is rather complicated. The butterfly has a rather weird storyline and very very weird ending. Haha. But I did tear during the ending. Because in both stories, the main leads die. So in conclusion, when someone die in a movie, I will cry. Haha. =)

I woke up very very early to take my passport today. And I took only half an hour nap. Because I dozed off while watching New York Minute, and HanaKimi starts at 3pm. Surprisingly, I can wake up to watch HanaKimi. I'll do anything to watch my Wu Zun ok! He's my 2nd boyfriend! <3

I managed to beg Dad for extra $50 for shopping. Only! And it's GSS!! Nvm, I think I'll use my saving first, then start saving up again during attachments or skip lunches in school.

I'm still debating whether to go to school for Modern Dance on Monday. It's from 6 to probably 8. It's like gobsmacked right in the middle of the evening, and I have to travel all the way to Dover for a 2 hour dance lesson. But on the other hand, it's the first official lesson for the juniors, so I won't look good if I don't turn up... And I don't know if the shopping trip with the babes is still on. Not everyone is online, so we can't discuss.

I want to get contact lenses! Anyone can accompany me? =)

Oh yeah baby! School's out! (only for 3 weeks)

I swear, I'm starting to get rather pissed off with my laptop. There is just something wrong with it. I think it's because of Kenny tampering my laptop during the FOM presentation. Sigh. It's so blur now...

I was shocked, when you texted me that 3 words. It was rather shocking. And when I asked where did that came from, you said just the thing that I don't want you to say: from your heart. And then, you left me hanging there, letting my imaginations run wild. I'm tired of playing this game. I'm tired of guessing what you are going to do next, and when are you going to do it. I'm tired of waiting for your messages. I'm tired of all this shit.

That's the reason why I did what I did. Because I'm tired of playing. I'm sick of waiting, for you.

It's hard to let you go. But as long as you are playing this game, I don't want to be part of it.

There.

So, let's see what I am going to do today. Maybe watch some indon movies, upload some photos, and get started with my shopping list! Oh gosh! This is exciting!

Gosh! I had a hectic week! Thank god it's going to end tomorrow! There is still IP presentation tomorrow. I have to score for this one. I did very badly for the previous one. Probably one of the lowest. =(

Wednesday was tough. We had the IT test, and I think I screwed up mine. The time was short, and I totally forgot how to calculate Frequency. I used my calculator, and just typed in. -.-" There were so mannnyyy eye candies during the test. Not in our room, but in the next room. *melts* Had breakfast (mcgriddles!) along the way to SB cause we were running late for lecture. And that's my only meal for the day!

Me and girlfriend made a VERRYYYY last minute decision to go for the auditions. And I practise my freestyle like there was no tomorrow! We changed and dashed to MPH. Somehow, I missed taking the lift at RSS to the studio. There is no lift to MPH. And inside was like a million gazillion people! Ok, I exaggerated. Probably about 200? And I'm one of the last batch. We formed groups in 4s. Me, girlfriend, yang2 and girlfriend's friend. Wait like mad, and my heart was like pumping real hard. I swear I can just puke there!

So it was our turn. Had to take a self-shot before dancing. So I posed lor! *act cute pose*

It was nerve-wrecking. There were about 10 seniors plus Daniel. Our choreography was all at different timings. I'm the slowest one. And for the freestyle, I'm the slowest one to start. Shit man! And I totally forgot my middle freestyle. I did my 1st 8 and my last 8. I screwed up, big time.

And surprise, surprise, I got in lahhh! Me and girlfriend got in. =) Happy giler sungguh punye... Yay! This shows that I don't suck at hip hop! =)))) And considering that there's only 20 spots left during our turn, and there's many others who havent audition, I think i did pretty well.

Thank you babes who pestered me to go. And thank you guys for giving me support and encouragements!

If I have the money, I'll go for the 8 weeks course. It's a bit hard to save, especially with $5 as daily allowance and GSS going on! =(

Ok, I have my IP presentation tomorrow, and here I am, updating. And I have flu! And my voice is sengau can?

Kenny did something to my laptop. The words are blur and the image is funny. Shit la! =(

I can't feel my legs anymore. =(

CIP today sucked. It was so freaking tiring and what we were doing was pointless. We knocked on every door, asking if they want FREE cleaning services or bed, and like 4/5 of them didn't even bother to open the door. Stupid people. Don't want free things. If they offer it to me, I'll grab it man! =)

Then played with a black cat with Lydia. And the cat kept rubbing its head on our leg. And it licked my toe! Stupid cat! I swear, the place was like a cat paradise. There were so many cats scattered around. Oh me and some other played at the playground. Yeah, I have deprived childhood. Haha...

Then went to PS to have dinner at BK and shopped around. I'm feeling soooo guilty now buying so many things. GSS is now on, and I'm going gaga at all the shops we entered. Never mind Yussy, one more week and I can do a bit of shopping... =)

Planning to go to school at 8am. But I doubt I can wake up. =( Let's see how. Oh, going to meet up with Kang Lun for dance practise for auditions tomorrow evening. Finally! If i really can't finish my choreography, I'm soooo going to back out!

Ok, I'm dozing off already. And it's only 9.37pm! WTH!

I need my Nescafe.

Shit. The laptop just died on me. Out of the blue, the screen went blank and it shuts down by itself. Technology is starting to get on my nerves.

I swear, my head kept nodding, my eyelids are heavy, and I just feel like waving the white flag and going to bed. I didn't get much sleep last night, and other previous nights. Projects not completed, tutorials not done, IT not revised... And yes, dance not choreographed. 2 words: I'm screwed! And to make matters worse, I have CIP @ Bendemeer tomorrow afternoon! It's such a waste of time and if I have a choice, i won't go. And why Bendemeer? Don't ask. I have no idea.

To go for the homecoming or not to go for the homecoming? I'm like half-hearted. Maybe because I'm not really close to anyone at RS and everyone else has their own clique and I'll just be standing around like a moron. I'll decide tomorrow. =/

Thanks for all the concern guys. Don't worry, I can still survive. I can pull through all this shit. =)

I'm dreading next week. Why does everything have to fall on the same week? I'm so unlucky. First the Week 5+ Camp. Now is Week 7. Great man! What's next? =(

Thanks for your message. It really cheered me up. Especially when I was crying the whole of last night.

My marks for IP's first presentation suck. I'm so freaking disappointed with myself. I got the lowest, I think. Yeah, there's like some glitches here and there and unluckily, the presentation falls on the day after the meeting and the day of camp. I know, I should not put the blame on anyone. I'll have to work very very hard for this coming presentation. No more screwing up of presentations, Yussy!

Kenneth gave me a call this morning while I was in train. I was like panicking, thinking of what wrong did I do for the last few days. It turned out that he wanted to explain to me about the FOM project, because I sent him an email regarding the project. Scare me out of my wits man... But, he's nice though... =)

I'm totally confused right now. There are so many things bugging me. IP presentation (especially since my marks suck!), FOM project (because I'm still rather blur about what to do...), ITAM exam (I failed the previous test. Thank god it's only 5%) and the bloody DANCE auditions (I'm not done with my own choreography and I don't know if I should complete it since I don't have any more ideas! And... I still don't know what song am I going to use.)

I went to take my passport picture just now and I realised that my hair colour is like red/brown/blonde? under strong light. Yeah, I'll do something about it soon. And I look fat! =(

I'm still waiting for you. No matter what.

Another 3 more projects due after the break. Great! I havent even start FOM which was supposed to be presented next week. But on the other hand, I did all the IP slides n reports for the girls. So, yeah. I'm waiting for the guys... Quick la!

I was dozing off during PACC this morning. I swear, my eyes were heavy, and I don't understand a single shit of what the lecturer was saying. Thank god for tutorials. Or I'll die. I'm so going to bombard tutor tomorrow with all the PACC crap.

FOM drives me mad. Thank god there are only 2 written tests for CA, which I think I'm going to flunk. I'm going to study like mad during the holidays. No shopping for me! *yeah right!*

Oh yes! I need more clothes.... =(

I have yet to show my babes my dance moves for the auditions. See how ok... I'm very shy la... *makes a gay hand action*

Panda eyes. Greaaattttt!

I swear, I'm going to breakdown sooner or later.

It suck to go through all this alone by yourself. I want someone to stay by my side, someone to always tell me that it's ok, everything will be fine, someone to hold me in the arms whenever I tear.

Maybe I'm not that strong after all. Maybe, I still do need you.

Maybe, I still do love you...

Hey there!

Friday was horrible. I reached home at 11pm the night before due to inefficient SDZ AGM which was supposed to start at 6.30pm but started at 8pm instead! So yeah, I was panicking and trying to memorise my part during the meeting. It was horrible, I tell you. Did some last minute discussion and I went to sleep straight. Without packing my camp bag and ironing my clothes! And I was rushing like mad in the morning... I didnt even realise I didnt comb my hair!

Hmm. I screwed my presentation. I have to work hard for CA2. And this time, no more last minute preparation!

Dance camp was BORING! In fact, I think my secondary school camps are much better. I only enjoyed the dance classes and night walk and disco night. That's all. The planning was inefficient and we had to wait for programmes to start for like an hour or so. The food sucked (seriously I don't know where all our $15 go to). I only had 1.5hour of seep the first night and 4hours of sleep the second night. It was really exhausting, considering that I didnt get proper sleep for the past 2 weeks.

Dance classes rocked. I love the contemporary dance and some other hip hop and reggae dance. Night walk was great. Scared the shit out of me. My nightwalk partner have to calm me down the whole time. Haha. But he' great. =) Disco night was great. But it ended rather early because many were all wiped out. I was the last few on the dancefloor.

And yeah, there were some eye candies here and there in the camp. =)

I went home early today (12pm). It was supposed to end at 6pm. I missed the modern dance class and water games. And I didnt get my camp tee! Grr! Oh yeah, I took the cab home.

I slept from 1pm to 9pm non-stop to compensate for the insufficient sleep. I'll spend the whole day tomorrow doing homework and tutorials. I have so many thing to catch up on during the holidays. =(

Another hectic week this week. I have ITAM project, IP project and FOM project. =( I hate my life.

Hip hop auditions next Wednesday. I so need help for the freestyle... Maybe I'll go back to RS to ask Miss Jenny for help... If I have the free time....

Sorry girls, I can't make it for tomorrow's shopping and movies outing....=(

Oh, I need to invest on some good shoes. Mine just tore during camp. Horrible. I can't even walk properly. =(

Ok, done. It's a long long post huh?

I swaer, I'm freaking out right now. The IP debate is on Friday, and my group is still not sure on what to do. We are supposed to go online at 9pm today. So I suppose I won't be sleeping tonight. And tomorrow night will be even worse! I'll be busy with last-minute preparation. I packed my camp things just now, just to be safe.

I think I won't be getting sufficient sleep till Monday. And Monday is supposed to be shopping day with DHRMP04 babes! I'm going to be a walking zombie!!!

Poly life suck!

Today sucked.

Presentation sucked. We took a long time trying to figure out how to turn on the sound system. Wait, it was Andrew and Kenneth who were trying to figure out how to turn on the thing, while we stood at a corner, waiting for a miracle to happen. I swear, Andrew was like practically banging on the keypads and I got very worried. Kenneth had to cut off my presentation due to time constraint. Can he just wait for me to finish want I wanted to say instead of cutting me off in the middle of a sentence? So now, we have to finish off what we wanted to say, and I don't know whether I should restart the whole thing or continue from where I left off. I think I better start the whole thing again... All my effort preparing for the speech goes down the drain!

Oh, I swear, I was dozing off during the presentations. Maybe because it was CD after all, and the topic are like Bah! Chengyang was really hyper, but it really didn't do the trick.

So, our lunchtime was taken up by ITAM. And most of us didnt have lunch. The guys brought in like nasi briyani and ate in class. (Mcm classroom dierorg gitu tau!) And I starved till I got home.

School sucks. After this week (Week 5), we only have a week to prepare for exams and another FOM presentation. There is like NO BREAK at all!!! And I thought poly life is supposed to be fun? What's so fun about this? =(

I seriously have no mood for the camp. And I'm really really tired and frustrated! And when I'm tired, I tend to do stupid things and crack stupid jokes. So people, bear with me for a while.

Vanne asked me whether I've recently been through a breakup. No, babe. It happened a few months ago. And I'm still not over it. =(

Bah! Cleaning the old folk's homes were not as fun as I thought. Mainly because we only had one house to clean instead of five as the rest were locked, so we cannot get in. But the people there were oh-so-friendly. And they have so mannny stories to tell. But we cannot communicate with them much. Thye only know how to speak Chinese. =( We spent half of the time eating and playing since we finished work early. I love my class. <3

I'm so depressed! There are so manny clothes and shoes that I want to buy. My wardrobe is getting boring, and i think I've repeated all my outfits. =( Sad. I'll try asking Dad for extra allowance.

Farrina, must go back to AMK Hub ok? I want buy clothes! And babes, outing on Vesak Day okay? Movies and shopping!!! Wonder where I'm going to get al the money from... *The sky! haha*

I saw KHAIRUL AMRI at AMK Hub and I got so excited... But Noh Alam Shah is still my top favourite though. =)

I'm freaking out right now. EC presentation is tomorrow and I'm sooo not prepared! The thought of it makes me want to pee in my pants! Yeah, it's that nerve-wrecking, because they concentrate mainly on our Grammar and Tenses. So, if I screw this up, I'm dead. =(

*I miss you. I really do. I just wish I could run into your arms and hold you tight and never let go. Cause I really do need a hug* (gosh! the thought of this made me tear)

I swear, I'm so going to screw up the presentations this week. Mainly because my time management sucks, and I seem to be doing everything at the very last minute. And I'm lacking my sleep too. I keep sucking on Kopiko (which doesnt really help, btw) and snacking on food, but it doesnt seem to work. My eyes are like half-closed while I'm typing. And it's only 9.28pm.

Finally, I got a point for IP presentation and found many evidences... It's really hard to win, I tell you. Because I found many other evidences for the proposition team as well.

And my hand seems to be hurting even more. Maybe it's because of a muscle strained. Just don't let it be a bone fracture. I'm still debating whether to go to a doctor, because it'll be a waste of money if there is nothing wrong and they'll refer me for an X-ray and it'll cost even more! Sigh. Even the consultation is like $20+.

I really really really need to sleep.

I think i'll be so exhausted after this week, that I have to miss dance camp on friday. Oh tidakkk! *dramatic action* I'll skip it if I'm too tired. Because I put my health first. Not coming to school is wayyy much worser than not coming for dance camp.

Farrina kept making fun of my actions like fiddling with my hair. I tend to do that when I'm stressed up and bored. Mummy is badddd! I dont want to buy mommy balloon already. Yes, you read it right. Mommy wants balloon. Haha. Ok crap!

Serial killers lead an interesting life. maybe I'll become one myself if I cannot get a proper job. Yay.

See, this is what happens when Yussy is very very very exhausted. she'll start talking to herself out loud, talking crap and random stuff.

=(

*I want my teddybear back*

Finally, I can blog preperly now. The past few days had been hectic due to the preparation of FOM presentation today. It was a mad rush because we GOONS thought the presentation is held on Week 5. But it turned out to be today! Thank god everything went well. Our presentation was rather lengthy as compared to the others. Somehow, I feel the load off my chest. There's 3 more presentations next week.

I was practically shaking and quivering during presentation. I was breaking out into a cold sweat even though the air-con was like at full blast. I have to go through it again 3 times next week. And hell, it sucked being the last group to present.

I was almost late for school today. To make matters worse, it was a lecture for the 1st lesson. So, when you enter late, everyone will be looking at your direction including the lecturer. Thank god it didnt happen to me today. I enter the theatre while the lecturer was briefing them about the CAs.

Screw 901! The bus was 20 freaking minutes late. And many did not get to board the bus. And some stubborn people just refused to get wait for the next bus despite it being full. They were desperately squeezing everyone, hoping that somehow, squeezing can help to make them smaller. (Stupid idiots think they are made of air, which can be compressed!) The driver had to keep shouting at them and refused to move until the door closes. And that was time-consuming. Lesson learnt: Take 900 when the bus did not arrive after 15 minutes. Oh, the bus company is so screwed! I'm so going to lodge a complain!

Randomness: I want to marry a guy that has loads of money so that I can go shopping everyday!

I went GAGA again at Cotton On and several other shops. Zu asked me to tag along to Lot1 and I bough two tops on sale. It was worth it. Even though many are like so Bleargh!, there were several others that are nice. I think I'll come back soon to get another one top. Tsk! My allowance gone! $100 per month is SOOOO NOOOOT enough!

EC and CD. These two topics so do not have anything to do with business. -.-" Such a waste of time. Sigh.

"I've decided. No more chances for you. Because I know you'll screw up every chances I give you. Even though I do love you, I have to let you go. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for the stuff. It was nice. It really was. Ps. I like the smell of your cologne"

I'm feeling soooo dead. Projects are due very very soon, and I'm so not prepared. Horrible, hectic schedule, I tell you. Thank god my CCA haven't start. Or I'll be coming home everyday looking like a Zombie!

Yes, it's only been the 4th week of school and I'm as busy as a bee. Horrible school. Or should I say, horrible time management? Haha...

I'm out of here. =(

Two classes were cancelled today and we only know about it at the very last minute! Hmmph! we could get out of school at 10am you know!

I'm exhausted! FOM report editing killed me. I'm surprised that I'm still updating. And I have yet to prepare speech for my part. Die! Oh guess what? We got to know that FOM presentation is to be done this Thursday! (Read: 2 more bloody days! Or 1 and a half then!) OMG! We are rushing like maddd! I can become crazy! Babes, if I shout at you guys, forgive me. I'll get very cranky when I'm stressed up.

HR event just now sucked! The hotel was nice, but the presentation sucked! Wasted my hour there.

What Vanne said was true. If you still like him, go for it. =)

" Yes, I was surprised by your sudden SMS yesterday. Thanks for consoling me. Thanks for lending a ear, hearing all my whining and abusive words. It was nice. It realy was. Thank you."

The feeling is coming back... I wonder why...

Whee! I've just finished editing the CD video. I spent like 2 hours straight editing it. Well, I think it's a good turnout, considering that it's my first time editing a bloody video and I only know how to use the basic functions. SO proud of myself! =) *kembangs beb!*

My part for CD and FOm are done, including the reports. So for now, I shall concentrate on IP debate and EC presentation. And I should start speaking proper English! =)

Spent the whole day at school despite not having any lessons today. Did projects and discussed about IP. And hey, the "serial killer" topic turns out to be quite interesting! Maybe it's not that bad after all.

HR event tomorrow. And they girs still havent decide on the dress code. *panic!*

Vanne says my outfit looks like as though I'm going dating today. Yeah right. No one wants to date me larh! *makes a pathetic and sad face*

Ok, I shal start on my EC research now!

So little time, so much to do.

Finally, it's over. I've quit. I'm gone. Yay! I'll miss my friends. Poor Fitri is alone all by herself... Now, they are bugging me to find another place to continue with my Ngaji. -.-" Sigh.

Tutorials? Done! Revision? Umm... still slacking....

IP is bugging me. We havent meet up and our dateline is next week! =(

No school tomorrow. Or to be exact, no classes tomorrow. Those presenting on Week 5 do not have to come for class, and Econs tutorial has been shifted to Wednesday for these two weeks. Yay! But will be meeting up for projects. =(

"I thought I could move on. I thought I could find another replacement, to replace you in my heart. But, truthfully, I did not move on. Not that I refused to, I just can't. It's hard, to let go of all the memories we shared..."

ps. I can still smell your cologne.

Wow! I broke my record! I reach home rather late everyday this week. It reminds me of the old school days during O level period. Finally, I have a life... =D

I still cannot pay attention during Psychology lectures. Sigh. There are so many distractions and noise. I have to revise again tomorrow.

So many datelines coming up, so little time to complete it. Revisions, projects, tutorials... Its piling up into a huge mountain.

" It was nice to hear from you yesterday night. Yes, my heart did a little cartwheel when I saw your name appear in my inbox. Whenever I see your name, flashbacks came running through my mind. The good times, the bad times. The good memories, and the bad ones. It was nice. It really was. Thank you for making my day."

I'm stil searching, for that special someone.

Packing at Little India was fun! Yeah, we had to go there quite early due to the long journey and everyone was tired and sleepy, but in the end, we had fun. Had to pack many flyers and brochures into each paper bag (up to a thousand!) and I think our group did the most. =)

I had scratches here and there on my arm due to the sharp edges of books and brochures. Reminds me of the work at More Than Words.

Oh, they gave us $100 for each group to have lunch. But we ended up spending only half of it. I mean, we only have 6 people in the group. And our meals doesn't cost that much. So we returned the rest to the teacher. She's so nice and generous. =)

Saw many angmohren(s) there. And I went gaga over them. =)

I realised that I'm so high nowadays, making stupid lame jokes. I'm no longer my emo-self. It's a good sign.

I seriously have no clothes for Dance Camp. And it means shopping. Anyone knows where to get reasonable cargo pants or khakis, do tag! I'm going to do my shopping this weekend. (p.s I'm so broke!) The thought of having to bring my Friday books along for camp puts me off. Can someone be nice enough to help me carry my books home? Maybe I'll ask people later.

I have to start doing stretchings again to regain (? cant find a suitable word) my flexibility back. =(

Tomorrow is Friday = Dooms' Day. School finish at 5 and we have back to back lessons from 12 to 5. And there's Psychology tomorrow. What can be worser than that? =(

Should I sign up for SSP (SangSingaPurba) or should I not?