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YUSNIZA, yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
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Do TAG, love you! (:

This week, so far, has been very enjoyable (: And the company rocks!

Monday, met up with Diy for another proper round of shopping. Spent on unnecessary stuff. HAHA. Was not fruitful, because what we wanted could not be found ): Fell in love with a stationary shop at Orchard Central. Went gaga over cute and pretty notebooks, and bought myself one! Looks like a book from Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. Damn chio! (:

Met with with Lil Nadiah Kuku and had dinner at Swensens. Was stuffed with only a plate of spaghetti, fries and one serving of ice-cream shared among 3 people. Mehhh. Wanted McFlurry. Then, we did the thing that we always do during our Secondary School days, hanging out at the park and cam-whoring. And this time, I managed to grab hold of Lil's camera and infested it with my unglam pictures! HAHA. Whee! Played swings and some turning turning thingy. And more camwhore under the block.

WE MUST HAVE ANOTHER THREESOME OUTING KAY! <333

Today, Tuesday. Met up with Gladys, ML, Liern, Ai Hui to get costumes for Glady's choreo. The leotard we are getting is damn chio. Can't wait for it! (:

Then, met up with Diy (again! (:) for final round of shopping, headed to Causeway to catch Fame. Fame rock my socks la! The main characters are hot, the sound system was great, the dancing and choreographies were superb! Two thumbs up!! Some parts of the movie was rather emotional (well, at least for me!). I want to catch it again!!!! And today's shopping was another disappointment too! Mehhhh!

Sincere apologies to my two KukuS for cancelling our movie date on Friday ): So sorry! Something important came up! ): Make it up to you guys kay!

Watching Fame makes me want to start brushing up on my techniques, and do well in dance!

Today, I realised one thing. I'm not ready to move on. And I don't know when I ever will.

And seeing your pictures still make my heart thump even louder and faster ):

Visitors after visitors. So sianz... Even more sian when they don't give me green packets just because I'm 18 (even though I'm still schooling!) Baaaah!

Had a freaking disasterous haircut yesterday. My bangs is too short now, and I look like a freaking idiot. A trainee took me (there was a crowd yesterday). And she still can ask me, is it short enough. I'm like WTH? Shall never cut my bangs at the hairdressers again. I rather cut myself. Sheesh. So now, the only way I can fix my disasterous hair is to clip up my fringe. And look botak and chubby. Sheesh! Damn irritating and ugly.

Vetting yesterday sucked. Ryan hated it. Bleargh.

Dance camp next weekend. Can't wait! (:

Had our threesome 'reunion' last night. Despite hari raya and having visitors all, we managed to get together. Played with some sparklers and candles. Got high over nonsense things. Camwhored. Played on swings. Played hopscotch (: Was great fun. It's been our tradition every year, and hopefully, it'll continue despite us being in different schools. Meeting again on Monday for shopping and dinner. Whee! Swensens Swensens Swensens!

Basically, next week is packed. Mon, shopping and dinner. Tues, buy costumes and sequins and probably catching Fame (: Wed till Sun, dance trainings. Oooh, can't wait can't wait!

Got to plan for more outings the week after next. School is going to start soon, so have to enjoy ourselves to the fullest.

Okay, what is wrong with my relatives? Some say I gain weight, some say I look slimmer. Zzzzzzzz! -.-" Oh by the way, I lost 2 kg! Am going to maintain it wooo! But a bit impossible laaa

Okay, bye! (:

P.S Threesome outings <3333

I swear, I had no intention to hurt you in any way. I swear, I thought you would take that as a joke, because really, I was just joking when I said that. Truth is, I do enjoy listening to all of it. Rolling of eyes and the whatever expressions, it's just meant for fun, and I swear, I don't mean it.

And I'm afraid that my stories won't interest you and bore you, which is why I chose not to tell you.

I really didn't realise that my joke had gone too far. Really.

Sincere apologies. Really.

If you get it, good. If you don't,...

I feel so stupid because I waited up till 3.30am to wait for the results from ichat account. Thank god I decided to sleep, because I really couldn't take it. Turned out that they sent at 5am! Sheesh. Anyhoos, big thanks to Ahmad Syafiq for staying up with me and accompany me (again!) and trying to cheer me up (: Appreciate it lots. Results, okay lah, better than expected, better GPA, but my accumulative GPA sucks. Sigh. Work harder work harder! And I got As for my most 2 worse subjects! Surprise surprise! Wheeeee!

Gastric problem is coming back again. TSK. Blame my stubborn-ness for not eating properly. Now, I'm munching on my favourite Japanese snack (:

Today, dance (Pearl's) was okay. A little frustrated at times cause I can't do the steps well ): Got to work harder. Decided to watch Cherie's choreo. And I really learnt a lot, which I don't want to say. And no wonder Cherie kept laughing, LOL. Freaking hilarious. But the moberly studio was too cold (16 degrees for crying out loud!) and I was practically shivering. Took like almost half an hour to recover from the numbness.

Whilst watching the choreo, whilst in the cold, I suddenly remembered how you held me close to you when you saw the goosebumps on my arms. I suddenly remembered how you wrapped the blanket around me. I suddenly remembered the way you hugged and massaged my legs when I complained the day before that my muscles were aching from dance. I remembered that peck on the cheek, how you kissed my fingers, smelt my fingers and saying that there is sambal smell and that I didn't wash my hands properly. I remembered how you complained that I don't walk properly and that I kept banging into you. I remembered how you like to poke me in my tummy. I still do remember all those little details that made up my happy memories with you, despite trying real hard to forget about it. It's been more or less 120 days. I thought I was fine again, but I was wrong. Still wrong. I don't want to hope, because I know it's hopeless. For your heart belong to only her.

With all those thoughts, I teared, and then could not stop tearing, so I rushed down to the washroom. Baaaah! Crybaby!

Tomorrow's choreo is slightly later, so I can catch up on my sleep. Yay! Heh. Can't wait for Fridaaaay! Meeting with my two Gundus! And I still don't know the plan for that day -.-"

It's late, I'm tired, but I'm not in the mood to sleep! Baaaaaah!

Okay la, bye la.

P.S I minimized that paragraph due to identification purposes. So you're really really really to the max, interested in my life and wants to be a kaypo (haha! no hard feelings!), you can ask me personally. I wrote it here, because I want to express it. I'm very open one hor! Hee (:

Goodnight! (:

Wanted to do my hair today, but my tummy is giving me cramps, and I'm simply too lazy to move out from my house. All my plans to go out today was cancelled, or rather, postponed ):

But, it was rather a fruitful day. I finished reading a 400+ pages book by Sophie Kinsella <3. Even though it's another happy ending, her stories seemed to be very realistic yet with a bit of fantasy and imagination. Love it! (:

And I ate only 2 pieces of bread with egg and some small cupcakes the whole day... I'm still not used to having 3 meals a day. And part of me is lazy to have a proper full meal. Not to forget my hurting tummy ):

Am planning to stay up till late for my results later. I'll see how. Maybe I sleep or an hour or so first, then wake up to see the results. Heh. But am not looking forward to it though. My expectation is really high this time round. ):

Somehow, when I can't control my emotions (especially for the past few days), things can get quite crazy. I've got to learn to take things slow and hold my emotions. I've got to learn to be stronger. And I still have to get used to a very silent mobile phone despite the urge to text everyone whom I had a past with and catch up with everything! It's really crazy, but I've got to take things slow.

I want to list down the things I want/need to get. No more shopping spree, no more compulsive shopping. But so far, I'm rather satisfied with my shopping (:

Shall probably update again later with my results/while waiting for the results. Goodnight! (:

Can everyone stop serving soda/sweet drinks please? It's only the 2nd day of Raya, and I'm already having sore throat. Sucks man. And the cough syrup is totally not working ):

Raya this year, is like other years. Very sian. Zzzzzz...

And my aunties say that I'm getting fatter. Thanks lor! As if I don't realise too. Sheesh.

It's been a long time. 2 and half years to be exact.

And I haven't had a proper laugh/chat since Saturday ):

yppaH yadhtriB. tsuJ nI esaC!

I'm afraid to express my feelings here.

I think I shall make this blog private one day.

Haiyah!

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya! And the stupid cycle goes on again. So sian -.-"

Sian. Sian. Sian. I rather go dance ):

And did I mention that I miss my two KUKUs lots? ):

Internet connection now sucks to the max despite me re-starting it. GAHH!

Anyhoos, am looking forward to Pearl's and Gladys' choreo tomorrow (:

Raya eve tomorrow. Somehow, I'm not looking forward to this year's Raya. I couldn't even care less if my clothes are ready (FYI, It's not ready yet) when every year, I'm the one who is the most excited and very particular about the clothing. Ahh, what the heck.

*Cut in: Dammit, there's a burning smell in my house, and I'm trying to find the source. Damn irritating la. Damage my lungs... Sheesh!*

Quoted from Mus: Love is blind, painful and unfair. Painful because you get hurt by your partner often without them realizing it. But you're blind enough to not notice it. And it is unfair because at times, you give more than what you receive. True true.

Accompanied Sab to get her heels today. And she damn cerewet and a freaking fast shopper. HAHA. She ended up buying the same heels as me. Just a size bigger. LOL. Was damn tired when I got home.

Aiya, so sian. Internet connection sucks. Did I say that already?

I miss my two gundus freaking lots! ):

Today rocked! Went town with Diy. Fell in love with the shoes from Far East ): Shall get it later during our next shopping kay babe! Oh yes, and those ribbon hairbands too! Finally got my black heels (for presentation purposes and for Waves choreo). And I'm seriously falling in love with Fedora hats. I suggested to Diy that we can share a hat, and then borrow from each other when we need it! (: Shall see how.

And we got lost at Orchard Ion. Wanted to go up to the 1st storey, but ended up at Wheelock Place instead. Tsk, this is what happens when both of us are damn slenger and KUKU!

Headed to Shin Tokyo at Yew Tee Point. Had 17 plates of sushi together in total. Targeted 20, but were too full. We couldn't even walk la. Now, my tummy is like 6 months pregnant.

I tried the 3 minutes Pantene treatment, but instead I put it on for 30mins. HAHA. Shall see how my hair is later. Really, I need a bloody good hair treatment. Went hunting for Nivea products just now too (: And finally found my favourite Nivea deodorant which I have been hunting for for the past few months (: Happy happy.

I miss my two gundus many many lots lots ): Kiwi, faster finish work kay! I try to go out when I'm free from dance too. Poor Vanne is collecting dust at home. ):

Break fast with part of the Senjas tomorrow. And am still contemplating if I should do my hair tomorrow. Or maybe just go for a trim...

Part of me feels guilty for going out almost everyday and not helping Mom prepare for Raya. But I owed people too many outings. Tsk ):

Okay, a very long post. Goodnight.

P.S Poor army boy cannot Raya this year again since he'll be at Brunei. Aww. All the best dude! (:

100 days with Mr Arrogant. Yet another happy ending. Bah! Give me some reality stories can?

Hmm, come to think of it, yet another one come and go. Shit-balls.

-.-

On a brighter note, at least C is still keeping in touch, despite being MIA during the weekdays. (:

Okay, people at home are starting to piss me off again. Shit-balls.

I need a freaking proper sleep. I slept for only 3 hours last night, yet I can't fall asleep now no matter how tired I am. Sheesh. The freaking insomnia is back ):

Hari Raya is in a week's time, but I don't care.

I wanted to blog about my thoughts on what's happening in dance. But some of it are a little too, personal.

So to conclude, I really have nothing to blog about... Except,

The original plan was to go IKEA with Diy, but instead, I (not we) went shopping yesterday at Bugis Street even though I'm not supposed to and have to wait till Raya. I spent a freaking $69. But my purchases are all satisfying, so yeah, no regrets! Am crazy over studded things now. I should get studs and sew it on everything that I own! (: And the things I got is not even part of my compulsory shopping list!

I'm sick of the Raya songs on radio. -.-"

Okays, done, bye (:

Why is Blogger still so retarded? TSK!

Okay, so I've been MIA on Wednesday and Thursday. Busy with dance sessions. Fun (: It's only the second day that I break fast in school, but I'm already sick of the Bang Deli and 711 food. Gaaaah. Next time must buy packed sushi (:

Hmm, Wednesday was spent on the audition piece (so hard la!) and Thursday was the audition itself. Audition sucked. I forgot my steps, I fell on my butt during the jump (hopefully I managed to cover up. Don't know if it's obvious or not) and there's freaking freestyle. I was not aware of what I'm doing during the freestyle -.-" GAAAAAH!

But, am determined to do my best, push myself to my limits, stock up more plasters, and FIGHTING for Waves (if I get it into any choreo at all la). If only my parents can come down to support me. Then I'll extra work doubly hard to show what I've been doing for the past 6 years. But, oh, what the heck.

And I didn't know my previous post is damn emo. LOL. Nah, I'm not rushing to find happiness or anything, because I'm already happy the way I am, surrounded by my loved ones. Just that, at times, it just feels different. No worries kay. Anyways, thanks for the concern! I feel so loved yawwww! (:

Today, am meeting Diy at 2 (ok, it's 12.41 now and I haven't bathe!) to accompany her to IKEA. Then probably go around that area and explore. And then, if I feel like it, I'll go buy packed sushi @ Clementi for buka. Then dance meeting at school at 7. I love packed holidays! <3

And I'm not in the Raya mood. The clubhouse beside is like blasting and singing Raya songs, and me and Sab were like, ERRRRR... HAHA. Okay, now my mom turned on the radio, and it's playing Raya songs. -.-"

Okay, I think my post is very long today. Heh.

Goodbye! (:

Blogger is getting retarded day by day. -.-"

Monday and Tuesday were spent spring cleaning the room and making cookies. And a bit of WGM. Hmm, I still do prefer going out though ):

Dance tomorrow and Thursday to keep me occupied (:

I decided to open up my box that is filled with greeting cards, letters and photos of the past. It's nice to have some things to remind me of my past. Am glad I've decided to keep it.

I missed everyone who has been part of my life before. Those letters and greeting cards, there's always a phrase "Friends Forever". But it seems meaningless to me, when we don't even keep in touch, and I don't even hear from you guys. The sad thing is, a text message from me without any replies.

WGM sucks now, because I hate the new couples. It's not as nice as the original couples. And I want to watch the episode where Marco and Son Dambi get separated badly. Youtube can be such a letdown at times. ):

I'm so bored of going online already! Outings anyone??

These three days at home, I gave it a lot of thought. How much I depended on you. And looking forward to your messages every morning at 4plus am. And how you forgive me so easily when I make you mad, and then pretending that everything is okay the next day. How much you wanted to see me online. How much you keep talking about my elmo PJ and my bear.

I'm really afraid of not being able to stand up on my own feet, cause I feel that I've been leaning on you too much.

I'm sorry I treated you like shit all this while, but you still make me happy everyday.

I should stop being too dependent on you. But still, thank you for existing in my life.

Fighting!

P.S I know you do read my blog. So, just want to show you this (:

P.P.S WK has found 'his' happiness. Wish you all the best! Fighting! We'll be here for you!

P.P.P.S Me and WK faced our disappointments at the same time, but 'he' already found 'his' happiness already. So what about mine? :(

P.P.P.P.S Sorry ah. WK wants to remain anonymous. So it'll get rather confusing :P

I was spring cleaning the room today, and came across the boxes and letter that contains those memories of the past relationships. Painful, but beautiful. Letters (a lot of them), photos, necklaces, rings, soft toys, figurines. And it all came flooding back to my mind. Bitter sweet, I must say.

Part of me just want to throw all those things away. But, these were the things that made me much stronger and wiser. And made me become more careful with my choices in life now. And I want the stuff to always remind me on how much I've changed for the better.

But, at times, the painful memories come haunting me.

Anyhoos, I cleaned up half of the room all by myself. Yay-ness. Really, only by doing it all by myself, things get'll done faster and there's no delay. I don't do all-talk-but-no-action. Like someone. Muscles aching and scratches and bruises here and there. Haha, felt like I got these injuries from dance :P Am left with the clothing part (got to throw some clothes away) and I'm all done with spring cleaning. Hopefully I will get it done by tomorrow (:

I think I rely too much on K. Just a day without talking to him, and I feel funny. Shit, this shouldn't be the way ):

Okay, time to eat again (:

Dance, killed me. I don't know why. Gladys went through only the stretchings and techniques, but I was so exhausted. And my thighs and calfs are screaming. Feel so disappointed in myself. My techniques are like shit now after the break. Shall work harder now. Fighting!

After dance, went to accompany Ili Nadiah Bte Jamaluddin to her ITP place. We walked aimlessly for like 30-45mins but still couldn't find the bloody place. But the roads sounds familiar. Then, I saw a Giant signboard, so I thought it's the Turf City. Turns out to be a place selling cars. GAH! Really man, that place is so freaking ulu and deserted. I still can't get over the fact that I couldn't find the place. This is the first time I have no sense of direction ): I shall find you one day, place. SHEESH!

Took 2 buses from the non-existent place to Queensway Shopping Centre to accompany Ili Nadiah Bte Jamaluddin to get her shoes. Whoa, seriously feel like dying. And the shopping centre is actually playing Hari Raya songs. Feels like Geylang! HAHA!

Then took a bus to Clementi MRT, and trained to Woodlands to break fast at Macdonalds.

I kept knocking my head against almost everything. The window frame in MRT and the divider at Macdonalds. And I kept dirtying my things and my hands with the stupid chilli and mayonaise which accidentally got spilled on my side of the table. So irritating. I seriously cannot eat with a guy during dates. Will be making a fool of myself ):

Oh Macdonalds actually on the Malay radio during break fast time so that we can hear the azan. Damn coolio or what. HEE.

Shopped around Causeway Point for a while before heading home.

Am shagged. And there's no one home. So scary ):

Shopping on Monday and sushi break fast whee! (:

Today, is finally the day when I can really have a proper sleep and rest at home after the exams. (:

Wednesday- Went to meet Kiwi and Vanne to IKEA Tampines. Got sooooo excited over cool storage boxes and every little thing that is there, including the curtains. Okay, now I sound like a retard. Headed to Orchard Ion to meet up with Zuby and Hanna. Not bad la, the place, especially when there is the Rubi shoe shop and the I-forget-the-name-of-the-shop-but-it-sells-damn-cool-clothes-which-is-quite-ex! Didn't join them to Far East, was so shagged.

Thurdays (aka yesterday!)- The class, or maybe half of it (it's so hard to get the class together!) went to catch Dance Flick and those who stayed on, catched Slam Band. Dance Flick is a total disappointment. I almost fell asleep. Slam Band was much better, more of a chick flick. But the main guy actor is a total disappointment. Me and Alyssa agreed he looked like Mr Bean. LOL... Oh, both movie theatres were damn empty, there's only us and a couple or so. So we conquered the whole theatre, making so much noise. Was great fun! (:

Headed to school for dance. Did a bit of stretchings and a lot of talking. HAHA. Had proper dinner cum proper break fast at LJS at Clementi (yes, 2nd LJS meal in a week!) And lots of chatting home (:

Today, I'm suppose to clean up the messy files in my laptop, and start cleaning up my room. Which I obviously haven't started. Soon :P

I want to catch the Time Traveller's Wife! Anyone anyone?? :P

Dance tomorrow. Can't wait! (:

Today is Tuesday! Woots!

Today rocked! Even the Blaw paper rocked la! The paper was manageable (okay, maybe cause Dennis spotted questions for us, so we can concentrate better). Much better than CBM and PMT. But the room was freaking cold, and I almost fall asleep again, towards the end of the paper.

Almost the whole class (11 girls! Quite a lot okay. It's rare that we go out together!) went to catch The Proposal at The Cathay. Was raining like mad. We braved the rain to bond. HAHA. Ok, nonsense. The proposal was nice. Unique storyline, not just some boring cheesy storyline. And the Mexican guy was hilarious! Go watch it! Highly recommended.

Some had to leave after the movie. We headed to PS to walk around and shop. And we decided to catch another movie. Final Destination.

Whoa, this part, damn kecoh. It's M18. Among us, Vanne is not 18 yet. And, we had our IDs checked! PS lent Vanne her ID and she did not have anything to show the person. They then secretly passed the ID to each other. Wah, the guy sensed something but didn't say anything and let us in.

During the movie, the same guy kept walking up and down the theatre, and seemed like looking for someone. Vanne kept hiding. LOL. Damn scary. I was more scared of the guy than the movie la!

Anyhos, Final destination was boring and nonsense. Gore, yes, but the plot and how they died, like damn nonsense. The 1st one is still the best! Oh, did I mention that it was my first M18 movie in a movie theatre. So sad ah?!

Dinner cum break fast at LJS with Kiwi, Vanne and Jasmine. And then headed home.

Had a bloody great time! Thanks OhFour! Looking forward to the next class outing!

Tomorrow, outing to IKEA and Orchard Ion with the girls. Whee!

Okay, I seriously need my sleep. I had only 4 hours of sleep last night ):

And I want to find clothes online. (:

Enjoy your holidays OhFour!