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YUSNIZA, yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
Brown, Chocolates w/o nuts, White roses, Jellybeans, Marshmallows (:

Do TAG, love you! (:

Finally, one performance down. I never thought the event was THAT grand. Scare the hell out of me. But it went well. Had lots of fun though. Okay, except for the rehearsal waiting part (Read: 4 hours!), which was totally screwed up. And the food was like *melts* Heh.

Danced from 10am till 9pm today. Official training, rehearsal for today's performance, rehearsed for That's the Way it is, another rehearsal again, then then performance. I'm so proud of myself. Great workout, wheee! (:

One more performance to go, then full concentration on studies, exams, projects etc etc.

TND and PNCM project to tackle. I seriously have no idea what is going on.

I'm so happy to see Senja Crew coming back together again for That's the Way It Is, despite Aznita not being able to make it. Certainly brought a lot of memories back, aww. <333 Jump shots to be posted up soon! (:

At times like this, I really do feel like screaming at people and breakdown.

I'm tired of initiating things, I'm tired of trying to keep everyone together, I'm tired of clearing up people's mess, when I'm not even supposed to. Like come on, I don't even know what's going on! I'm tired of having to do things all on my own. Because really, I'm not supposed to work alone. WE work TOGETHER.

I'm not shooting at anyone or anything in particular. I'm just tired of being in charge of things I'm not supposed to, or anything that I don't know about. Cause really, being in charge means doing all the saikang jobs.

And being extremely sick doesn't help, at all.

The title says it all.

And this time, to the extend that my body could just shiver at night, mucus dripping (EWW!) while I danced to the extent that I have to keep holding on to the tissue throughout the dance, my head would just hurt during long train rides home, especially when it's damn packed, I felt like I'm floating the whole time, and getting nauseous whenever I drink my medicine.

The first time in months, that I'm so badly ill. HAIYA. Worng timing. My busy schedule is starting already.

I'm sorry if I passed my disease to you, make you worry, get on your nerves etc etc.

HAIYA! ):

I just realised, things are still very awkward, well, for me. I guess I still need time. Well, things have been going well, for now. Let's just hope that it'll be better, or at least, continues.

FM FM FM, I really can't screw this up! Especially the theory! Ugh.

And finally, it's settled. Just need more confirmations and admin stuffs. I won't screw this up. I may know nuts, but at least, I try my best. Unlike some others, who only know how to blame people, sheesh!

The hilltop girl and the Kitkat guy (:

Anyhoos, let's just hope that I'll get an answer on who is performing, and then try to work things out. Am still waiting for replies. I suddenly thought of asking the Senja Crew to get back together again and do That's the Way it is. Oh, how I missed those times ):

It's funny how we keep insisting on buying medicine for one another because both of us are sick. "I buy, you don't buy. No, I buy, you don't buy." Cute (:

Well, since now, you know everything about how I feel towards us, I feel so much better. That period of time was VERY stressing, but well, it turned out well, I guess? (:

Mr KitKat, Hill Story, Rooftop, Engineering (:

My 'I don't know', 'I think', 'Maybe', 'Can we move on to the next one?', 'Hmmmm...' answers (:

I guess, for now, all we got to do is wait. Wait for what and how long, I'm not sure either. But well, let time tell.

Goodnight (:

I felt very fresh for the first time this morning. Like finally, I have my at-least-six hours of sleep.

GEMS test was pretty easy. And to think I got very worried for nothing. 18/20 is certainly not bad, considering that I skipped 2 lessons, not knowing what's going on, almost failing my Biology paper for Olevels.

Lunch meetup was nice (: Except for the part where I was being interrogated like some prisoner. And thanks for the treat Zaki! I don't have to pay you back right??? (Heh, as if he reads my blog -.-")

I deleted some stuff in here. Just in case. I'll never know.

Dance tomorrow. I have no idea how to wake up ):

Fow now, got to study for FM!

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

I need my sleep. Like real bad. Even coffee no longer works. My wisdom tooth is acting up again, so I can only eat noodles and bread, mehhh. ):

My biggest concern is the new choreo, whether I have enough time to finish it up. The performance is just two weeks away. I have yet to complete it, I have yet to choose dancers, and basically, I'm screwed.

Been missing from dance for quite a while now. Session tomorrow, thank god! (:

I hate being a perfectionist. Especially at times like this, when I have to speed things up. I can barely breathe now.

HRIS Presentation
UCCD Presentation
UCCD Report
GEMS MCQ Test

All on this week. Good luck Yus! ):

Oh oh oh, I so can't wait for Friday's lunch (:

Intensive project meeting from 2pm to 8pm. Well, at least, for me. HAHA. More compiling to do. The killer projects, crazy bunch of people, comfy couch, lots of snacks (And I really mean lots of snacks!) are loved. We should have more of such project meetings in time to come (:

And for the first time in months, I laughed till I cried. Like really sobbing cried! Thanks to Van-nie-ssa. Thanks girl.

We are so going to kill these projects. Let's do it girls! (:

And alhamdulilah, my MST results are so far so good. Better than expected (even though I feel that David could give me better marks, damn it!). I just regret not studying as hard in Year 1. And since GPA is accumulative, it's bringing down my GPA. Sheesh. Got to work doubly hard, gyeah!

I miss dancing. A lot. Screw the busy period. Screw the deadlines that are being set all together, and having to miss out on lots of gatherings and outings, damn it!

I just have to hold on for 5 more long weeks. Before the final semester exams. Then then, freedom. I hope.

When I just feel like putting everything aside and take a break even for just an hour, people start texting me about projects, dance etc etc. I can do this. I can do this. Deep breaths Yus. Deep breaths.

And I realise, it's not that I don't feel belong. It's just that, I refuse to make an effort to fit in.

Okay la. Go do project la. SIGH

Van-nie-ssa told me to update. (:

I'm such a weakling. My flu is here. Okay, it's been a while since I've been sick. But still, such bad timing to fall sick. When I have lots to do. Never ending DEADlines to meet, tests to study for, plus, dance trainings and sessions.

2 upcoming events for performance. More sessions to come. I can do this. Hopefully, 'You're Not Sorry' will be a good piece. Wish me luck. Anyway, I saw the Open House 'Almost' video. Messy like hell. I failed. Sigh.

I need a rest. Sigh.

Thanks for making my day, with the Nescafe and the ultra delicious Chewy Junior, and climbing up to SB just to send it to me depite having lecture and the big rain. Appreciate it. (:

Okay, goodnight (:

Yesterday was greeaaat! Okay, except for the projects part. SIGH ):

And yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIWI! I LOVE YOOOU! I know your love for me is not as deep as Jeifu's, but still, I LOVE YOOOOU!

Had an outdoor lunch with the girls, and caught Alvin and the chipmunks 2. Super cute (:

Met up with Diy, and went shopping at town till we literally drop! The sales were like WHOA! Next shopping trip to Bugis kay babe! Plus our promised hangout at the cafe! Oh, I'm still glad that we are still that close despite not being in the same school for 2 years <333

Okay la. So now I'm officially broke. Don't ask me out anymore. Heh.

And yay! I have new clothes to wear to school tomorrow! (:

Oh wait, tomorrow? HRIS report submission. SIGH. And PNCM report submission on Thursday. HAIZ. It's going to be the start of the full speed week. I can do this!

I spent from 12am to 8am to compile PNCM report. Applause. Thank god for those motivation *winks* SMILE! :D

Okay la. Bye la. I haven't bathe.

Unappreciative. I'll let you win. I don't want to play this game anymore.

GEMS ended rather early today. Did a bit of report, and then went home. Journey home sucked. My head was thumping like mad and I kept getting blur vision. Was so worried that I'll get nauseaous or black out. Thank god I survived.

Had a nap for the first time in 123456789 weeks.

Somehow, I don't feel like I want to belong there anymore. Should I just go, no?

Substitution. Yet again. And I thought things would get better. You want to play this game? So be it.

Performance was -.-" despite the crowd. Whatever. I'm just glad it's over. My reports need my attention now, and so does my body. Maybe I'll go MIA for a while. Maybe I'll go prepare a better item for Jasmine's event. Maybe I'll just shut down.

Had a mini celebration for Kiwi Darl (: Sushi plus mini choco cake plus banana pocky (new flavor!) plus endless nonsense = LOVED. Hope you loved it dear. That's why we went to the other direction, to prepare the "cake". Not because I'm a kukuhead and forgot which restaurant is it! TSK.

And Makcik Ronah! "Were you from heaven?" EH! LOL. OMG la. So cheesy. On the tissue some more. OMG, highlight of the day. The senior manager wanted to woo and tried to be cheesy with Ronah. He wrote that on the tissue and passed it to one of the waitress, whom then passed it to our table. SO CUTE! ((: And of course, other stupid nonsense. Including me not knowing how to use a chopstick to pick up the sushi. And dropping everything. TSK.

And had a great meal. Thank you loves! <333

Headed back to school to do project. Hardworking or what! Were all in the sleepy mode.

Okay, back to reports. What do I have to do again? -.-"

I had major diarrhoea during dance session yesterday. What tires me was not the dance practise itself, it's the climbing up and down the stairs to go to the Sports Hall toilet. Because MPH toilet cannot flush properly. I tried to dance full out with my dancers, but everytime I danced, my tummy wold hurt again. Sucks. And we had quite sufficient space and mirror some more! UGH.

Irritating thing, as I packed up to leave, my tummy was okay. I even ate Macdonalds supper with Nadiah. TSK. It's like telling me not to dance, HAIYA. Today, no studio (Okay, small FC5 studio, shared with HipHop people), space constraint, not all can make it. Stupid tummy! HAIYA.

How can one good thing and one bad thing happen at the same day? HAIYA. Nevermind, got to work harder for other components.

My tummy is giving me problems again. SIGH. If I have diarrhoea again tonight, I'll kill myself ): I hate my tummy. SIGH.

GYYYYEEEAAAHHHHH! Sianzzz.

School starts in 18 hours time. BUMMER. 8am class tomorrow. How the hell am I supposed to wake up? ):

Dance yesterday was a blast. Had a great workout, despite the cramps. Rehearsal was, ugh, tiring. I kept forgetting steps (and I'm the choreographer! WTH!) and UGH, nevermind. Shall just hold on till Thursday! Go yus! 4 more days! (seriously, put me in charge, and I'll screw everything up. I know nuts about taking charge ):)

And chat sessions after Saturday's training always rock. We talked from 5plus till 9plus. And are making great pans for the upcoming holiday. Ooooh! Can't wait! (: Okay, Sem 4 has yet to start, and I'm already excited. HAHA.

Ugh, school, results, report submissions, presentations. Damn! I have yet to finish any of the reports yo! ):

But first, I want to enjoy my Family Outing (: