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YUSNIZA,
yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
Brown, Chocolates w/o nuts, White roses, Jellybeans, Marshmallows (:
Do TAG, love you! (:
/Monday, November 30, 2009
HandWritten on; 7:57 PM
I seriously am a loser at resisting temptations. Damn it.
Really, I don't mind being a third person, even if it means hurting myself even more. As long as I'm there when you need me.Oh F. I need a freaking hard slap now.
SOS!
/Sunday, November 29, 2009
HandWritten on; 6:34 PM
It's not easy to piece things up together and mend the gaps. At least I'm trying to. But at times, I don't bother. Because you don't. People keep asking how are things between us, but I never have an answer. Because I don't even know what the F is going on.
Which is why, I choose to keep a distance. The gap is too wide now.
I've been living with a bunch of strangers for the past 18 years. I don't understand them, they don't understand me.
I don't like the way things are now. But I don't have the power to change anything.
I got to be stronger.
TND killed me. So what now?
/Saturday, November 28, 2009
HandWritten on; 11:14 PM
Dance today rocked. Even though there were some sharp pains and irregular cramps during the routines and choreo. Not to mention floor burns and blue-blacks. But I like (:
Im screwed. I have yet to start on revision properly, BAAAH.
It can get quite lonely at times ):
/Thursday, November 26, 2009
HandWritten on; 8:59 PM
I shall tell you my "LYCRA" story.
During FM, Mr Ben Cho was talking about some FM thing. Then he talked about Lycra. He went like "Yall know what is lycra right?" I whispered to Farrina, "Oh the colour pencils." At that point of time, Ben Cho was saying it's a stretchable material. And Farrina burst out laughing lor. Ben Cho was like what what? (cause we were sitting at the front!) And Farrina shouted, "Yus say it's colour pencils!" out loud to the class! Waaaah damn malu! -.-" Ben Cho can still say, "Huh, I thought you dance? You don't know what is lycra...? The colour pencils is LYRA." (while sniggering, HMMPH!)
I don't know where to hide my face, ahhhhh. HAHA. But classes this week are fun, yay! (:
I want to go shopping reaaaaal baaaaaaad. I listed down the things I want to get already! (:
Oh anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI! Where's my duit raya???
(:
/Wednesday, November 25, 2009
HandWritten on; 8:33 PM
HR Seminar was just a waste of time. During the guest talk, me and Hidayah were making fun of i-don't-know-what. LOL. I don't even know which company he is from, zzzzzz! Went for the sake of performance. Performance was okay, I guess? I didn't forget steps, at least. HAHA. Even though my roll cannot make it.
Two retarded experience with (Venice)ssa during the reception after seminar. LMAO! (:
And yes, I love you Mummy! Hope you like the roses and chocolates and our LJS meal. <3 Okay, now I'm officially broke.
Okay la. Bye la. I go bathe, then study.
I am strong, but now I got to be stronger. I can do this.
/Tuesday, November 24, 2009
HandWritten on; 8:29 PM
ME AND FARRINA FINALLY FINISHED OUR UCCD REPORT, WOOTS!*APPLAUSE LEH*
HAHA. A whole load off my mind. Time for FM. And of course, the 5 subjects for MST. 1 paper each day. Oh joy! ):
And tomorrow, after the HR performance, another load off my mind. Ooooh.
Okay la. Bye. Time for FM.
Nescafe and great company makes me HIGHHHH! Whee!
And my darling Vanne, cheer up! I love yooooou!
*updated*
Shit, I think I have split personality or something. One minute I'm so happy, and at the next, I get very moody. Cause I saw things which I wished I didn't see.
Even the sweetest brownies with lots of chocolate chips can't cheer me up.
F Facebook. F those itchy fingers of mine.
Time, time. How much longer?
Gah!
/Monday, November 23, 2009
HandWritten on; 8:53 AM
Post deleted. It's pointless anyway.
/Sunday, November 22, 2009
HandWritten on; 6:14 PM
Today, is one of those days again. BAH. So much for catching up on sleep on a Sunday morning. Thanks eh guys! F!
Internet connection very slow.
Okay, I've got no mood to update already.
Ugh.
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HandWritten on; 1:37 AM
This week sucked. Freaking hectic schedule, with everything comes one after another. HR Dance and reports meetups (notice that it's not singular), doesn't seem much. Well, it is, if it's on every single day!
Lack of sleep, DARKER rings, falling asleep in class (damn! and MST is in 3 weeks!), waking up late for class, just to finish up the stupid report and practise the dance. Baaaah, I seriously have no idea why I'm putting so much effort on the UCCD report. I'll scream if she don't give me at least a B.
Okay, the words are swimming in front of me.
Skipped dance today (and am feeling guilty about it) because there's not much time to meetup to finalise the content for UCCD report. Got to prioritise and sacrifice when it comes to such situations. Went home at 10.30pm the previous night to do part of the report, and then met up at 9am today. Syoik, not!
Jia Hui's Chinese Dance concert was certainly an eye-opener. Heh. Lazy to elaborate. But the modern piece rocks (: And the company too! And yes, not forgetting McFlurry. And Swensens dinner! <333 Love you all laaaa!
Okay la. I'm very very sleepy. Goodnight.
/Tuesday, November 17, 2009
HandWritten on; 6:25 PM
Basically, the things to do this week:
Research, reports, tutorials, catching up with my modules, choreo for HR Challenge showcase.
I miss my bed. Been getting less than 6 hours of sleep everyday now. Sleepy.
By the way, KFC breakfast meals rock la (: Especially Waffles and Eggs.
I had a lot of retarded moments with Ronah today (: As usual.
Dreading this week. Sigh.
And after next week, one more week to MST. Oh joy! NOT!
And when things are getting more busy, you came back. Ah thanks! What good timing. Read: Sarcasm.
/Sunday, November 15, 2009
HandWritten on; 12:16 PM
Another eventful event in 2009, APEC.
Freaking awesome experience! Okay, first two days of training were boring and redundant. And we were seperated into different zones! So, we have to work with new people, and had to wait for very very long in these two days. Memorised different food and trained how to carry the freaking heavy tray (thank god I'm not assigned to carry tray!). Had a grooming talk by previous Ms Singapore.
The day itself, there was more waiting. Waited for 2 hours to get hair and make-up done. The make up was freaking thick and heavy. Just one swipe of a finger, and you'll see a huge difference. But it's not bad. Better than the Waves one, heh. The hair was SIA style. Very chio! I'll post a picture on how I look like later.
Oh yes, the vest they provided us was freaking huge (It's size S!) and the name tags they gave us was fake names. I got 'Hanizah/Hasnizah' or something like that. Me and Wara got the same name laaaa -.-" But nevermind, it's quite close to my name, heh.
More waiting before the delegates came.
I was assigned at the Prata live stall, along with a Prata Uncle who did prata on the spot, and a few Teh Tarik uncle beside me. And the Uncles are freaking awesome man! Made friends with them. The Teh Tarik uncle even helped me scoop curry when things got a little out of hand due to overwhelming crowd. Thank you, cik! (even though you won't be seeing this! HAHA) The teh tarik was freaking awesome. I wanted to ask for more, but paiseh. The prata man made more pratas specially for me and my zone friend after the whole thing end, wooots! (and others wanted too, but he did not make any for them! HAHA).
The most memorable part of APEC: Getting to see the presidents of several countries. I'm very lucky to be stationed at a stall, because I get to see the parade of presidents, WHEE! There was this random guy (I think one of the delegates?) who stood beside me, and he complained he was tired and did not want to follow the parade. He then began to introduce me all the presidents of the countries, like some Social Studies lesson. HAHA, damn cool! Okay, no Obama, he did not come ): But Hilary Clinton was good enough substitute (:
Prata stall was freaking famous. There were a few people who kept coming back like 5 to 6 times for more prata. Ang moh some more, with more curry! :P
Okay, now back to reality= schoolwork. And I have to choreo 1min of dance within 2 days, OMFG. We are doing Almost by Tamia for the HR dance showcase (: And tons of assignments and projects. And more catching up to do.
Okay Yus, one more event to focus on (HR challenge) and then back to schoolwork!
Okay, a picture of me. The APEC make-up and hair.
/Thursday, November 12, 2009
HandWritten on; 10:10 AM
In my very sick moments. Fever, dry cough. Am supposed to stay home today, but nyeahh, I missed 3 days of school last week. Can't afford to miss more. Am freaking lost in FM and PNCM now. Nyehhhh.
APEC training later. Hopefully I'll be better. Crash course some more. TSK. Very wrong timing to fall sick, sigh.
Ok, I feel like I'm floating ):
Shall skip T&D lecture and go home and sleep. Before coming from APEC training.
NYEHHHH
/Monday, November 9, 2009
HandWritten on; 3:30 PM
Everything feels wrong today.
I'm totally lost at FM lecture because whatever he covered today is like pure PACC. I ended up day dreaming instead. T&D was not any better. The lecturer was talking to himself, and me and Ronah were making paper people and finding things to entertain ourselves. Damn cute (: HRIS was just a waste of time because everything was just based on the notes zzzz!
My bangs suddenly became uneven (left side longer!) after weeks of not trimming. Am tired of taking good care of my bangs. I'll probably just put it to the side one day. And my hair is freaking frizzy now because it's been months since I last put on hair mask. I need to start taking care of my body/hair/skin already. Was so busy with dance that I don't even have time to take care of my own body. Tsk.
I'm supposed to catch up on FM and do tutorial now, but am too distracted by transferring the Waves 14 photos to my laptop. Shall upload to Facebook tomorrow during T&D tutorial. Dinner tomorrow with Senja Crew <3 Well almost anyway (:
APEC people still haven't reply to my email. Tsk, so last minute la. Have to give the Sentosa outing a miss, sigh. So right now, I don't know if I'm in the APEC thingy -.-"
Today feels weird, because I reached home at 2plus. The last time I reached home at 2plus after school was like few weeks ago. Feels so funny, not bringing dance clothes and wearing leotard to school anymore. HAHA.
Okay, my post is freaking long. And I have lots of things waiting for me ):
Goodbye.
P.S I'm very very tempted to take a nap right now.
/Sunday, November 8, 2009
HandWritten on; 7:33 PM
Post Waves 14 blues. I miss my dancers. I miss our practices, our complains, our chit-chattings, our improper meals together. I miss the liftings, the smell of everyone's sweat (HAHA!), the quick changes, dancing in heels.. etc etc. The list goes on. It's only Sunday, two days after Waves. Baaah!
An awesome experience, even though there were more shits, stress and last minute work this time. It may be my last Waves, since I'll be having 3/4 months ITP during Waves 15. *SIGH*
Many things to update. Many things to catch up with (although I skipped only 3 days of school!), many assignments piling up, many project datelines coming soon. For now, schoolwork is my main priority. Have to leave dance aside for a while now.
Right now, not much things to look forward to, since Waves is over. Well, I did got in for APEC. Training starts on Thursday and Friday night, and the whole of Saturday. So, I guess, it's the only thing to look forward to. Oh yes, and the HR Challenge thingy. I don't know if the dance thingy is still on. No updates or anything ):
Nope, this post will not be dedicated to my dancers. Cause I'm rather busy catching up for now. Someday, I'll do it. And FM sucks to the max. SIGH.
And, a lot of people owe me money. HAHA. I'm freaking broke now. TSK.
I've decided to officially give up and stop hoping. And move on. No chances, no fate, what's the use, right?
Goodnight everyone. For I shall battle with the RM report (which is only a stupid tutorial and no marks given!) and start researching on UCCD.
Sigh. At times like this, I need more Twix and Yupi Strawberry Kisses and Hot and Spicy Calbee Potato Chips ):
/Tuesday, November 3, 2009
HandWritten on; 2:18 PM
I just woke up from my power nap. In T&D tutorial now. YAWNS. Totally fell asleep till I dreamt that I was in convention centre, doing Gladys' choreo. HAHA. Damn funny.
I want to resume back to sleeping. Shall sleep during RM lecture later. (:
Waves is in 3 days time. And I'm feeling the pressure. Pressure from the unprepared feeling. SIGH. Everyone is breaking down. And soon, I'll be next. Maybe today or tomorrow.
I've got to master Gladys' steps ASAP and ace the lifting! UGH.
Okay la. I'm so stressed up already. I don't want to do FM tutorial, so maybe I wont be going for class tomorrow.
SIGH. Wish me luck. I need more miracles.
/Monday, November 2, 2009
HandWritten on; 8:50 AM
Lack of updates. Tired, sleepy, muscleaches, bruises at weird places. But I don't want this process to end. At least, not for now.
4 more days to the BIG day. I don't feel prepared, mehhhh.
Got to work harder. And work on my expressions.
I DON'T WANT WAVES 14 TO END LEHHH!!!
I'm missing my dance people already ):
