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YUSNIZA, yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
Brown, Chocolates w/o nuts, White roses, Jellybeans, Marshmallows (:

Do TAG, love you! (:

I kept typing and deleting my posts.

Oh this is pointless.

Tell me my life is boring.

Paid an impromptu visit to the old house today (Yes, the one at AMK). It was nice, and memorable. And I'm glad the Mama shop that I used to go to still exist. Thanks, for accompanying me, despite the freaking merciless hot weather (:

What made me miss AMK even more is the library. My parents used to bring me there every weekend, and I would usually find the "Mary-Kate and Ashley" series or the Babysitters' Club. And my mom would pick Malay storybooks for me, and I'll end up not reading them. Ahhh, memories (:

And oooh yes, the waffles and pandan cakes at the bakery near the market! I would usually get them everyday after school. Along with other nonsensical snacks at the minimart.

Gaaaaah, I missed it!

Alright, time for me to get back to my book!

Finally, Year 2 has ended. Paper was a killer. But, who cares? I'm FREEEEEE, like finally.

Watched Dear John. I hate it because it's so sad. I cried the whole time. A nice movie to watch when you feel like crying. (:

Now, that I'm free, there's so many things I want to do, but I don't know where to start.

I'm not going to screw up tomorrow's paper. I'm so not going to screw up tomorrow's paper! Okay, self-denial. HAHA.

I wished things had been easier. I'm left hanging without knowing what to do, but to ignore. And ignorance is not bliss. I know i have to do something about it. But what, I don't know.

And I need a job badly. Any job openings, please inform me. Kamsa Hamida.

Not, I'm not emo-shitting. It's just a thought. Don't worry, I'm fine (:

One down, one more to go. Oh yeah, let's do this!

Two more days, one more paper (:

Well, if you think it's going to be a dream, why not make it to reality?

Listening to love songs really cheered me up (:

And thank you, I'm fine (:

It took me three days to realise, two meetings and one huge scolding from Makcik. That I was being stupid and foolish.

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And I know you read my blog.

I don't know how to express myself anymore. I don't know how to say, what to say, when to say. I don't even dare post anything here /:

My sudden outburst of migraine, cold sweat and floating-ness is killing me today.

Even ice-cream, the orange snack and Hello Panda can't cheer me up /:

I got to hold on, be wise, and don't make stupid choices anymore.

Even though I know I can be very stupid at times.

Studying in school is really really effective. Well, at least for me. Managed to be on full concentration from 12pm to 5pm, yay! (: Despite the noise and the hard seat and without my music on.

KFC breakfast with Makcik tomorrow, hopefully. Heh. I miss my Waffles and Eggs!

I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you now. I'm sorry I couldn't be beside you at times like this. If only I don't have all these stupid curfews. Stay strong. I'll be waiting for updates.

I only hope that things would be better now. Because I'm starting to lose hope in all this. It's hopeless. It's going nowhere.

It's a bit pointless to blog at the other blog anymore. Hah, so much for a surprise! It didn't even exist! This is what I call, losing interest easily. Yes, I'm that sort of person.

I really should take a step back. Things are going way to fast, and I'm expecting too much. And when things don't turn out the way I want it to be, I get very very disappointed. So, I shouldn't expect anything at all, right?

And sad to say, I'm being too reliant. I should stop it. I'm not being fair to anyone.

I just realise that, in this period of time, there's no one I can really tell everything to. There's no one that knows everything. There's no one that I can totally rely on for consolation. And it can get very lonely. Very very lonely.

SIGH.

I really hate to see my friends getting hurt by love. Giving up, becoming pessimistic, it hurts me. Love is only a beautiful thing, when you found the one. Please cheer up ):

And I seriously have got to stop procastinating and starting focusing. Two more papers, 2 more weeks. To freedom (:

And I've just thought of something brilliant. Oh gosh! :D

Hi, hello. I had the nicest sleep ever in 6 weeks (:

I miss my shopping partner. Babe, after the exams kay! We'll explore places that we've never been before! And I want sushi AGAIN!

Okay, I really have got no mood to start studying. HAIYA. Staying at home is a distraction. TV, laptop, Youtube, bed, FOOD!

I really think I should just leave. Oh gosh! ):

What Vanne says is true. I should be more open and not limit myself.

It hurts me to do this.

And you. Cheer up. Be strong. Life has got to go on.

And finally, the last day of school, the last day of Year 2. Ending the day with a freaking filling sushi dinner, with the bill of $60++!

It's amusing that I'm still breathing, after this freaking hectic week. On some days, things didn't go as planned. But well, I survived.

I'm sorry that our last meeting yesterday turned out that way. I'm sorry I got all upset over the slightest thing. When I'm supposed to be cheering you up instead. I'm sorry for being a bitch at times. It'll be another two more months before we can star-gaze again. I don't know how I'm going to survive. I'll miss you.

All the more I should hate holidays ):

Two more bloody papers before Year 2 officially ends.

Let's do this! Okay, makcik?

Halfway there. 3 down, 3 more to go.

The second star-gazing session was pretty (:

PNCM Negotiation practical tomorrow. Go Ivy!

And I finally got my favourite chocolate. Thank you (:

You don't know how upsetting it can get whenever you say that we're friends.

I hate it when little things like this gets me all upset. I want a hug ):

And I even hate it when UCCD gets more and more confusing.

And oh, I so can't wait for tomorrow to be over. It's going to be hell. But, after tomorrow, NO MORE LAB! Me and technology, we just don't complement each other.

Ugh, Sunday blues.

MONDAY MONDAY MONDAY, let's get it over and done with!

I promised myself not to touch on editing any reports during the weekends. Cause, really, it's taking up most of my studying time. Gaaaah. But Makcik Ronah, don't worry about it okay? I can handle it. You handled TND, my turn to handle RM (:

Gaaah, I'm sleepy again despite the nap ):

Alhamdullilah, the performance today went well. Thank you Jasmine for the opportunity. Thank you Senjas for coming back together and making it happen. Thank you juniors for working hard on a new choreography within a short period of time (P.S I see a JuniorSenja rising. HAHA.) Thank you all for the effort. Love you deep deep kay? My last performance in Year 2 was certainly memorable. (:

I should just go to bed after bathing. So lethargic. And wake up early morning tomorrow to study HRIS and UCCD. I have loooooots to catch up on. ):

Somehow, I feel like you can read my mind. I had thoughts of going there at night time, and suddenly you brought me there today. Scary, weird, but, it's nice. Very scary to go up there alone, really pitch dark, but the 17 stars were beautiful. Loved it (: If only there are seats there :/ And I really want to catch sunrise and sunset up there.

Project meeting tomorrow, all the way at Dhouby Ghaut.

I should really bathe now. I stink!

Maybe, it's just purely coincidental. Or maybe not.

I loved how it feels like to go up in the evening. I should try night time too. Especially during dance camps. It's best if I can catch the sunrise or sunset. It's been a long time since I did that.

I have two tests next week and I have yet to start studying. Oh i'm so screwed! :(

Performance tomorrow. Last performance for Year 2. And meaningful, since one of it is my own choreography, and the other brought us together and we formed Senja Crew. Hopefully everything goes well. 3mins dance+3mins rest (includes costume change)+3mins dance, just hope my stamina can sustain. Being sleep-deprived makes it even worse!

Alright, back to editing reports! ):

I'm tired, irritated and guilty.

I hate myself for not having the courage to speak up. I hate myself for being a perfectionist. I hate myself for worrying about everything.

I hate me, especially in this period of time.

Things won't be the same anymore. I can feel it. Maybe you can too. I hate the fact that both of us are very busy, and we're drifting apart.

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