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YUSNIZA, yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
Brown, Chocolates w/o nuts, White roses, Jellybeans, Marshmallows (:

Do TAG, love you! (:

You know the feeling, when you tried hard enough, you don't get your desired outcome, and then you don't feel like putting in any effort anymore. Because you feel that, man, what's the point, when it's not going to pay off.

That's how I'm feeling. It's either I'm being complacent when I got what I wanted previously, or I set very high expectations.

And sometimes, I can't find anyone to tell all my problems to. Very frustrating to bottle everything up, and then burst indirectly to someone who doesn't deserve it.

I guess that's life eh?

It seems like I'm freaking free right now, when I have 4 projects (for now) in hand. Well, I did my part, and I'm just waiting for the rest to finish their parts. Seriously, I think I would be one of the first to hand up my reports if there's any individual reports. Gaaaaah.

Okay, I'm staring at this blank space like some idiot. O.O

Yesterday, I dreamt that, well, I got into a relationship. Everything was all sweet and beautiful. But when I woke up, it felt like a nightmare. And I don't know why. From then on, I found myself distancing away from my phone. I chose not to reply, I chose to ignore. Scary Mary!

9am class tomorrow, haiya! The thought of school makes me sick.

Sudden outbreak of rashes. I'm suspecting my moisturiser! Tsk!

Okay, it's almost 12am now. Time to re-adjust my body clock and go to sleep. Or at least, try to! :P

Everytime I feel like expressing something, I can't put it into words. It's frustrating me like hell.

Oh did you see how beautiful the moon is today? Bright and round, reminds me of Macdonalds pancake! It's been a while since I had that. I remember those days when my parents would bring me to have breakfast at Macdonalds every Sunday before madrasah.

FYP today, was stressing. Well, I don't know about the rest, but damn, I'm feeling the pressure already. It's only Week 10, another 10 more weeks to go. Doesn't help that the IC don't give much help either. Gaaaah.

"Challenges? As in challenges faced when doing survey?" "Layman's term, problems faced." We know, Mr Tan, we know. That cracked me up a lot. Thank you, Mr Tan. HAHA (:

YOG's training was fun. Tiring, but fun (: Looking forward to subsequent trainings.

School starts tomorrow. Sucks. I get all depressed whenever I think about school. Gaaaah!

Guess what I wished for? I wished for every subsequent birthdays to be a blast like today (or rather, yesterday). For the first time, I finally feel convinced that my life is complete, even without a love life. Thank you all (:

Movie, Camwhore, Neoprint, Lunch & Dinner, Shopping, Cake, Presents and Surprises. Oh yes, not forgetting the best company. What more can I ask for?

Well, tomorrow, will be back to hell days. Reports, dance trainings etc etc. Damn!

So, I'm nineteen, my last teenage year. Shit, I seriously feel old.

My cousins surprised me with a birthday cake during dinner just now. Doubt they'll see this though, but, well, thank you very much. Entertaining my two nieces totally wears me out. I can hardly eat properly cause they kept talking to me.

Looking forward to a good time tomorrow! Even though it's not a celebration or anything, but well, a day off from projects and dance is totally what I need! (:

Okay, I'm dead tired. Heh.

It's Day 3, and I'm still having fever, flu, sore throat, and now, cough. I have to be well by today, or I can't keep up with the long training hours tomorrow. Sighhh.

More workload added to my already piling workload.

Know what's on my mind? Whether I'm truly happy, or is it just a disguise. I changed a lot during the recent years, to the extent that I don't recognise myself anymore at times.

Sigh, see what fever did to my brain? I'm thinking too much.

What the hell, just be happy Yus!

I survived today! With only 6 hours of sleep the night before (mind you, I need at least 8 hours, HAHA), waking up with fever and flu, performance for AGM, rushing off to EL meeting, then FYP meeting. Woohooo! (:

Thank god tomorrow's meeting is cancelled. Finally, proper time for me to do the data.

Oh I'm tired. My nose is runny, and my throat is irritating. And I'm shivering, and I'm sweating at the same time.

Yes, I sneezed.

YOG rehearsal was fun, tiring, and stressful. Spending time with the Senjas and some of the SDZ people rocks too, especially with Fried Mars Balls to end the day. Oh yes, sushi too! My mom's going to bring it back for me, yay!

Okay, that sums up my day.

And I'm struggling a lot with dance rehearsals and trainings, FYP meetups and other project meetings. Holiday, my ass!

Somehow, I prefer Dear John's movie to the book. Simply one of the best movies (well, at least for me).

Dance today was freaking tiring. My stamina totally went flat, and it doesn't help that today is a heavy flow and the cramps were killing me. Nyehhh. I forsee a more exhausting day tomorrow, especially since it's hiphop, and its 5 hours long. Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeaaaaah!

I really should start on FYP research. Gaaaaah.

I sincerely thank all the ITE students who actually spent a lot of their time and effort to help us fill in the lengthy survey questions. We actually managed to complete within 2 hours. Yay! No one actually rejected us when we approached them for help. Really worth all the trouble I went through with the printing of survey questions and the travelling back and forth to school. Totally cheered me up. Hopefully, it goes well for the Uni students too on Monday.

My usual hairdresser suddenly disappeared. I tried out a new one, which is totally cheap. Not bad service, and I might consider coming back (:

Dance for the next two days. Like finally!

It's GSS period. I swear I could just go crazy right now. I'm penniless, and my favourite stores are having up to 50% discounts. Daaaaaamn! I asked my mom, if she could spare me some cash for my birthday. She went like,"Go shopping with me la." Hmmm, right. We have total opposite taste. SIGH.

So it's the last paper. But still loads to do. Especially FYP stuff.

Gladys just sent me the YOG video. The dance was like,"Whoa. How the hell am I supposed to do that?!" Shit. What have I gotten myself into. Gaaaaaaah!

A trip to the hairdresser tomorrow morning, followed by survey on-site (ITEs), and then hopefully if I can afford the time and money, SHOPPING. HEH.

I hate it when I study so much, and yet still get tricked by the cunning questions. Blame it on my poor English, I guess. Gaaaah. On a brighter note, 1 paper down. 2 more to go. Tomorrow's paper is the killer one. And I can still watch my videos. HEE.

I just realised that everytime in this period of the month, is the worst period of my life. Same goes for last year. And this year. People may say it's a blessing in disguise, but I don't feel blessed. At all.

Oh well.

Sometimes, I look at them and wonder; Maybe there's something wrong with me. Sigh.