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YUSNIZA, yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
Brown, Chocolates w/o nuts, White roses, Jellybeans, Marshmallows (:

Do TAG, love you! (:

Intimidated. By everything. Well, almost.

I hate it when people say 'It doesn't matter what's the outcome. The most important thing is you tried your best.' Because, at times, outcome does matter. Outcome does matter, to get you to the top, or at least, noticeable.

Really, what's the use of trying hard all the time, when it doesn't make any difference? What's the use of putting in more effort than anyone else, only to get you nowhere?

Whoa, why am I so emo today?

Today sucked. Full stop.

Am in RWPS class now. Dead tired. School is a bore, for today. Couldn't absorb anything, mind is in a blur, and the eyelids are freaking heavy. Just feel like skipping this last 3hr tutorial. zzzz...

Dance session yesterday was dead. Today, let's just see how it goes.

I just want to curl up on bed, lie down, and go to my LALA land.

Holiday tomorrow yay! No plans, so most probably be sleeping and revising. Ugh. No life :(

Ah, okay, bye!

Have been busy for the past few days. Dance camp, endless tutorials, project research... Never ending. Thank god for a long weekend this week. I seriously need to catch up on some Zzzs.

School has been great. Challenging, yet fun :)

Okay, Law tutorial has yet to be completed, and Com and Ben Mngt is still waiting to be done. Ugh.

:)

It's only the 4th day of school, and I'm all worn out. God knows why. And I didn't go for dance session this week. Ahh, maybe my body just need some re-adjustment to the hectic school days.

TGIF! It's going to be a long long long day tomorrow. School is from 8 to 5, with meeting at 5.30 till late. Ugh.

I just love the company la. Being the butt of almost every joke :)

And I miss my senja fighters!

I just feel stupid, getting high at the wrong timing. Shouting and cheering when everyone else is quiet. Ugh.

And sometimes, I make a lot of mistakes when talking. Because I don't think when I talk. Words just shoot out of my mouth, and offend lots of people. Am sorry, if I've offended you guys in any way.

I got to think before I talk. Best of all, just keep my mouth shut.

Shut up yussy!

Hello :)

Am back to school as a year 2. So far, it had been good. No stress, YET. Nice tutors, nice PTN. But, after sitting through the overview of the modules I'm taking this year, it's freaking me out. There are lots of theory, lots of memorisation, and lots of application. Got to start early. And do better this time. Smangat beb!

I miss my Senja-fighters already! And it's been only 3 days. Boo!

First day of school sucked. Had the most unluckiest day of the year. Well, so far. First, my favourite bag 'ditched' me. My spare bag is faulty. The bus was late. The train was late. So I was late. And I made Vanne and the rest late as well. Ugh. I was like swearing and moaning the whole time. Ask Vanne and Kiwi. Thank god the day at school got better. And yes, I got another bag.

Today rocked. Went out with a mate to Marina Barrage after school. Chatted non-stop, with all the nonsense stuff coming out from our mouth. And eh! DIANCE BALET EH! Haha. Omo omo! Cracked me up like siao! *eyes go round and round* It was nice, thank you :) Bring me somewhere I never go to next time kay? :P

Okay, I've got to turn in early tonight. And have yet to read my notes. Ahh, Perf. Mngt is a headache la. No no, I got to survive this.

Okay done bye!

P.S I SINCERELY updated specially for you. Smile! You made my day! ;)

OMO OMO! (OMG in Senja language :))

It's a nightmare. As soon as I stepped on the weighing scale, I swear I could faint. I reached my undesirable weight. Like in just 2 months. Omo Omo! Very depressing leh! I shall learn not to snack or eat in school next time. Then can save money too! (:

Danced just now. No aircon. Sweating pigs. Omo omo! Can die!

School starts in 1 1/2 days time. Sigh.

Wah, my weight is starting to depress me le. And I have no mood to blog anymore.

Congrats to RS's modern dance batch for getting GOLD WITH HONORS yo! Wahh, we went from Bronze to Silver, and then you guys carried the tradition to Gold with Honors! Kudos to Ms Jenny for the beautiful choreography and the dancers for executing their emotions well. I teared while watching you guys at the audience's seats okay! And thank you for establishing a good reputation for the club in RS. YAY!

Went to Tampines area today, and watched 17 again. Boring movie. Storyline is so expected. And I didn't know it was Sterling Knight in the movie. No wonder he looks so familiar. Am really exhausted today. Don't know why. So many SP-ians collecting donations today, which got quite a little irritating.

And really, that message dampens my mood. I was so close to forgetting about everything, and then it became back to square one. Now, I have to start from scratch again. Ugh.

No good company online. Sigh.

Performance tomorrow (again!) in the early afternoon, then meeting the girls for some shopping/chat session. Last outing before Year 2 starts. Ugh. April is such a busy month. I'm so exhausted.

Ahh, I feel like I'm dying.

Pretty busy week ):

Am Jiahui just informed us about the last minute performance on Friday ): Am so sorry girls, I have to change the date. Especially Zu. Aku rindu kau to the max! (okay, this is weird. Since when do I talk in Malay?) Am so sorry guys ):

Ahh, helped out in SYF from 9 to 4, then headed down to school for meeting, and then hiphop showcase till 10plus. Ugh. Out the whole day. Am going to get shit from my parents soon.

Okay, I can't update much. Am sleepy.

P.S Sorry to the max Zu!!!

Ugh. Am still having diarrhoea. Should have listened to Naz and go to the doctor's. Many people I know are having diarrhoea too. Wow. Poor toilet aunties. Haha.

And to make it worse, I had 4 performances today. Had great fun! Performed for MIT, CLS, MM and EEE. (Heng no SB!) And so far, no forgeting of steps or wrong steps. Yay! Unlike some people hor, Jieling? LOL. Ok, I shall not be mean. Hmm, last performance tomorrow, at the amphitheatre. Okay, I'm a little concern of the surface of the stage. A bit rough and hard to do turns and pirouttes. Must be careful not to fall. Or people'll start making fun of me. :P

I broke my record. All these while, I tried my very best not to shat (past tense of shit) in school. But today, I could not take it just before the EEE performance. I ran to the Convention Centre's toilet twice ok! Thank god for the clean and empty toilet! Ugh. Stupid diarrhoea! And then went again after the performance.

Had lunch cum dinner with Az and Nadiah. And as normal, a lot of speech problems for Az! CY-PER! HAHA. Today rocked la. Company rocked the most! Love my senja-fighters yo!

Everyone is like dispersing now. Conflicts, disagreements, so sad. I missed the times we were so bonded :( Hope everything will be fine soon.

And Hope said our choreo is nice! Kudos to JiaHuiJia! Okay, and the rest of us who contributed. Senja fighting!! *smiles proudly like an idiot*

The tune Insomnia by Craig David is stuck to my head. Gonna learn the song, wooo!

You know, maybe I'm a little glad I am having diarrhoea. Cause maybe it's an opportunity for me to lose weight. :)

I miss my OhFour! :(

And I'm getting less excited for school to start. School starts =Tired =Endless assignments/projects/presentations= Less time for dance= SAD! :(

EEEEE! I keep waanting to shit le! So irritating! Ugh!

Diarrhoea, macam like want to faint siolx! Went to the toilet for four times since afternoon. Ugh. I don't know what I eat either, that caused this.

Ugh. Hopefully I'll be well tomorrow. I don't want to shit in school! :x

Today rocked. Because of the company! Love the people in That's the way it is and Gladys lots! <333333

Went to Vivocity like early in the morning at 8.30am with Meiliang and Nadiah. And I equipped myself with cold Nescafe and Cookie Crisp. Everyone was like dead. Haha. Not used to waking up early, I guess. Hmm, had rehearsal halfway, and then realised that it's the wrong song. Jiahui panicked like siao. Haha. So cute (:

Went to slack and practise at the open space area outside the Sentosa train station. And practically everyone were staring. So paiseh. Lol. Went to lunch and *i wrote something here, but Jiahui said I should remove it. Haha.*

Had another rehearsal. And the stage was rough ehough to give me floor burns. Ugh. Like as if I needed more! And something funny happened. I was fanning myself frantically after rehearsal because maybe I gave full out, and plus, it was mad hot! Then one of the organisers came to give us briefing, and then seeing me fanning frantically, he voluntarily fanned me with his paper! HAHA. Nonsense sia. I looked that bad meh?

Performance was okay and fun. Had some retard moments after the performance. LOL. I just love my moderners laa (: There were many funny moments (especially from Jiahui!) that cracked me up like some KUKU, but I don't really remember any. Hee. I just know that I would have quit dance long ago, if it weren't for the company. Yay! (:

Journey back with Az and Nadiah was a retard one. Nadiah kept on talking nonsense and random stuff that cracked me and Az up. Haha. What Az said is true. Nadiah is like Sab, always talking non-stop. Me and Az are more like speak when we feel like it. Hee. But still, I enjoyed their company many many! <33

Went to collect my glasses. Had the frame changed. Looked okay. Okay no. A bit geeky. Haha.

I need lotsa rest. Three more performances to go for the Freshies! And then, school'll start! It's good that I'm being kept busy till school reopen. Keep my mind off things. And maybe helps me to move on as well. (:

And Jiahui, if you're reading this, don't talk when eating! HAHA!

And Az, did your reserach on the priority seats already?!?! LOL!

Ahh! Can't wait to see you guys on Monday! (:

Vanne and Kiwi, outing on Tuesday? I need to get sandals for school! Beep me! (:

My post is very long hor? Hee. Too much to say.

Went out with both my parents despite my tiredness. Got nagged at when I refused. So, yeah, just go and spare my ears the misery. Ate at West Coast. And I burnt my gum. Bloody painful to the max. Thanks eh, Indian Rojak. Haha. First you killed someone, now you burnt my gum. Okay, I'm very nonsense la. Then went to East Coast Park and walked around. -.-" and then, went to get my spectacles done. Had the frame changed.

Okay, I want to go back to my Hana Kimi! My Wuzun rock to the max la! (:

Tomorrow, tomorrow, it'll be a long day. Ugh. But nevermind, at least I get to meet the crazy people. Yayness. Oh, I bought Twix, Chocomint and 2 cans of Nescafe specially for tomorrow. Haha. And Cookie Crisp for breakfast tomorrow. Yayness! (:

Boo! I'm sleepy! and I don't have anyone to disturb anymore ):

Life is getting quite lonely. I want school!!

Aku penat siolxx. Haha. Ok. Nonsense minah talking.

Danced from 12 till 8plus today. Wah, damn tiring shit man. The soles of my feet are screaming for help, and begging me to stop. Well, that is, if they can talk. Time passed fast today. Which is good. Ahh, every part of my body is cracking whenever I move. And my toenails suffered a lot today due to the lousy flooring at T14 studio. Ugh. Have to cut it real short. And the 45mins nap is really useful. And romantic, with the spotlight on :)

Have to skip Ryan's class on Sat. Have to come down for rehearsal at 9 freaking am. And the real thing is at 3! OMGZ! I'll be bringing my pillow, haha. Am going to bring lots of chocolates plus strong coffee. Got to stay high till the actual thing.

Ahh! Public holiday tomorrow, which means getting to sleep in till late. Yay! I so need my sleep.

Okay, plan for next week will be, Monday, performance for the FO programme. Ugh. Tuesday, probably meeting up with the girls. Wednesday, SYF Modern dance, going to help out (:, Thursday, nothing, but there's session I think. Friday, performance for another bunch of people. Zzzz...

And school starts in less than 2 weeks time. Ah, can't wait! Hopefully got more eyecandies eh! (:

Okay, I'm done.

And thanks everyone for the concern (: Love you guys truckloads!

And so, the lonely days starts. Today.

I really feel like crying the whole time during the BBQ just now. Even though the people around me were like super high, I was trying my best to join along. But I couldn't. Maybe it's harder than it seems. Maybe it's going to take more than a day. Maybe I'm just not strong enough to not let my emotions get the better of me.

Fuck la! How to dance in this mood?! UGH!

So, it's over.

Every little traces are gone. Pictures, notes, text messages. It's the only way, to make me forget. and move on. The only thing is the jacket, which has yet to be washed (and which I don't know how to even wash!) and to give it to Bayi. Thank god for Bayi la.

But the memories, are still deeply etched in my mind. Which I got to erase. And I don't know how.

I got to be strong. I have gotten over once before. Didn't I? Before he left overseas. Now it's just another cycle. And another bunch of tears.

Really, I don't want to go to the BBQ. If not for the beehoon, which I feel like just delivering and then go home, I wouldn't come. I don't want people asking me why my eyes are swollen (partly because of half an hour of crying and sobbing and lack of sleep for two consecutive days due to insomnia). And I still have to endure tomorrow's intensive training. Aiyah. Hopefully, I'll be okay by later. I need to be in tip-top condition for the performance on Saturday and focus.

And after the whole thing at 7am in the morning, I fell into a deep sleep. For 2 hours. And I dreamt that the opposite happened. It must be either my subconscious mind (which is not exactly working at that time because it's wee morning) or my desire. And that was partly the reason why I woke up crying. Ugh. Eh, it reminds me of Eiffiel I'm in Love. Haha. So dramatic.

Thank god I have my friends around me. Even though only a few knew what happened. But yeah, thanks for the love. Muax!

And I'm proud to say that I can still make nonsense jokes with Nadiah. Haha. So yeah, I'm okay. Don't worry (:

Lesson learnt: Don't be easily fooled by sweet words and actions. And don't easily fall in love (:

Okay, part of me wished that you'll read this and see how deeply you've hurt me. But part of me don't want you to see how weak I am. But I think you won't bother about me anymore, and even read this. So I can rant all I want. Yay.

Okay, am feeling better. Ugh! If only the mosquitoes would stop biting me!

Life's a nightmare. Now. But I'm dealing with it well. Because of the girls who stand by me 24/7. Thanks Vanne for the solution, even though it's time consuming. And it's a good thing I have dance almost everyday too. Can get my mind off things. And not think so much. (Okay even though sometimes I do get distracted by it, and cannot dance properly :/)

Many have been asking where have I been. Okay, I've been dancing my ass off, and probably burning off some calories. Haha. Outside performance on Saturday, and we're preparing like mad! But, it's fun yo! The bonding and all the nonsense. Yay (:

Aww. So many people are concerned about me. Thanks yaww! And don't worry, I'm still smiling and laughing.

Think I'll be busy dancing till school reopens. Plus the last minute meetups and stuff. So yeah. Good. Get things off my mind! (:

Okay, there's a lot of smiley faces in this post, even though I'm not in my best mood. Yay (:

Ahh, I'm beat. I need some cough syrup to make me fall asleep. Insomnia days are back. Sigh.

Okay, I'm done. (:

I love my girls many many larrrrrrr!

This week: Dance all the way. Okay, almost. Dance yesterday (Mon), today (Tues) and thursday. Dance BBQ tomorrow. Friday, hopefully rest day. Oh come on! It's a public holiday! Ugh backache today. Because of the stupid arching exercise yesterday. Lol. Got to senja fighting!

I didn't get much sleep last night. Shit. My insomnia days are back. I need my cough syrup again ):

Getting costumes later. Ugh. Am bloody broke!

Ahhh! I sooo need a meetup before school starts!

Sumpah! If it's not for my girls and the dance people around me, I wouldn't find the strength to carry on anymore. Be it dance, studies, and everything else. Thank you guys (:

Dance later. Like what Sab said, got to "Senja fighting!" LOL. Nonsense woman.

I feel like having Kway Teow later. If we don't end too late, that is. The Uncle Kway Teow needs to go home to his family too. Uncle rock la!

Okay, this post is getting more nonsense and random.

Life is being such a bitch now. Be it dance, school, the company, and everything else. Including the mosquitoes. Everything seemed to be opposing me. Fuck.

I need a dosage of crazyness from people. Be it OhFour or the dance peeps.

All I feel like doing now is to sit in a corner and curse at everything I see.

Hopefully things will be better this week. Hopefully dance can get my mind off things. For a while.

Today (:

*smiles like an idiot*

And I need to catch up on my Zzzzzs!

Tomorrow, dance. Ouch. Ugh.

MOI!

US!

And Vanne caught a big big expensive bear at the toy machine thingy! Man, you are one lucky girl! HAHA. (: It's not easy okay! Went to Esplanade to cam-whore, and then headed home to get my dance stuff.

Dance was tiring and all of us were not in the mood. Probably too tired ):

And ugh! Dance tomorrow. My feet havent recover leh! ):