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YUSNIZA, yussy, yus, iza .
18, 210691, Gemini
SP, Human Resource Management with Psychology
Modern Dancer, SDZ
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Sigh. Another vetting to go through. No wonder the standard is so high. I'm tired of going through the whole cycle again. Once is enough. =(

I seriously don't feel like going at all. Just when I thought it's all over... Babi oink oink lah!

I don't give a damn anymore. I'm so going to NDP preview, whether I have to miss practise or not! Wait, I don't think I can even get in, since all the girls couldn't get in. Gaaah!

I rather sit home and chat till late at night. =) *mind starting to drift*

IP presentation tomorrow is giving me the jitters. I think I mentioned that already right? Sigh. It's all up to Chris now. =(

I can do this, I can do this...

That call was certainly surprising. It certainly was.

But I just hate the reason that you told me why you called. Because your friend played a prank on you. It sounds like as if you are calling because you were forced to, not because you want to.

Sigh, I still can't get over it. And I just hate it when you start saying the things I am not supposed to hear.

But why do you aways have to come back and start that shit all over again? I thought we had a clean break?

Thank god for my friends or I'll start crying again.

=)

Have been going home at 10pm for the past consecutive days. Damn tiring and fun! =) Wasted my $5 taking a cab home on Monday night, since it was already 10.30pm. Nicole just refused to stop teaching choreography. I swear, halfway throughout the lesson, I was already yawning and I danced like a drunkard. Yeah, and I had to recap the steps like mad on Tuesday night. Not easy at all. And to make it worse, it was held at T11A. No mirrors, blur reflection. And the old tai-chi people shoo-ed us away, claiming that we took up their space. Umm... hello? They are outsiders! We are SP-ians! Gaaaahhhhh!

Wednesday night was even worse. There were several conflict at MPH due to space constraint. Seniors ended up crying and not practising, the hip hoppers took up our space to practise their auditions. And worse of all, they are not even an SDZ member! WTH man! And they took up a lot of space doing their breakdance. They danced all night long, non-stop. No wonder the seniors were pissed off.

Performance on Monday is giving me the jitters. To make it even worse, we only started learning last Monday. One week is certainly not enough. The steps are complicated, and the expression, ah, I just couldn't feel it. I don't really emo in school. Okay, maybe except for just now.

I need my bloody sleep. Gaaaahhhhh!

And FOM is never-ending can? Wahlao!

Yay! I shall take a nap today. Or maybe sleep early. IP presentation tomorrow! Let's get this over and done with! Ahhhh!

Oh crap! I just couldn't stop thinking about that night. That night... Ahh. I just wish that you were mine. And I just wish I could love you. *melts*

I still have so many things undone. And I'm still not done with CD! Crap!

So little time, so much to do.

Ok, instead of doing my IP report and pps, I went shopping with half of BBSS! And spent $50 just like that! *clicks fingers*

Ok ok, nevermind. I shall focus tomorrow. But with Ronah, Yang yang and Hua hua around, confirm cannot concentrate! I'll either end up bullying them, or keep laughing the whole time.

Chris Tai bullied me today. I think I know why. Sigh. What to do? It's just not my forte.

And my gastric is still not gone. This morning, when I woke up, I was in so much pain that I had to go out of the house late. I was thinking of skipping PACC but I've already skipped it last week. Sigh. I feel so dumb for not having my lunch before dance. See lah!

Whee! I'm floating on cloud 9! Ok, just for a while. Haha

I'm having a war with Ho Chor Chuan now. Or should I say Hua Hua? Lol

Insult me some more right? Serve you right! Revenge is sweet!

Haha. Childish fights in 04 again. And I'm always involved. =)

Life is great!

I skipped dance again today. Don't remind me. There are so many things to catch up on. I might as well give up. Sigh.

Presentation tomorrow. Sigh. If I screw up my contents, my group will be screwed. Because the content I'm covering is almost half of the overall marks. So whatever I deliever will determine my group's marks. Oh shit!

Ok, I'm gone. I have to revise my speech. Can you believe it? My speech is 4 pages long? And I'm supposed to deliever it within 4 minutes?! I can imagine myself talking like a train... =(

Ok, I skipped session today. That 5mins sleep in the train back home made me realise that I'm ultra tired and need to sleep. The 3 hours nap was really a good one. Now, my head is clear and I don't walk like a drunkard anymore. Yay!

I've got Econs tutorial done for tomorrow and PACC tutorial for Friday. I still have accountinglab waiting for me. Oh, and also to start finishing up my IP. I swear, IP makes me mad. And there is still the ITAM project coming up. Sigh. It's never ending I tell you.

I'm dreading hip hop tomorrow. Sigh. I'm losing interest in hip hop. =(

Oh Econs paper made me madddd! The lecturer told us that there was some typo-error for this MCQ question. What pissed me off is that, because of that question, I changed my answer for another MCQ question, thinking that what I've learned is wrong! OMG! I'm sooo pissed off, I tell you. 4 marks gone just like that! And the long questions made it even worse! Oh shit!

Ok, I shall start doing my accountinglab.

Over and out!

Ok, it's ITAM lesson now which is equals to MATI lesson, where everyone in class will switch on their dead mode and become zombie for 2 hours.

I need my fucking sleep. I swear, while waiting for the food to come at the counter, I was swaying and I saw stars. Wait, more like fireworks. Haha... And guess what? I'm still going hip hop session later. Part of me doesn't want to go. Because it would mean that I will be going for dance almost everyday, except for Friday. Sigh.

Why am I going? Because I think I need to catch up on what I've missed. Sigh. I regret not going last week. Blame it on my weak immune system.

I'm tired like shit lah!!!!

And more projects piling up! Ok, this will be the only week that I'm going for hip hop session. It starts at 6 so I'll be going home first.

Sigh. Just hope that I don't faint later... Gahh!

GAHH!!!!! Econs drives me nuts! Especially Elasticity. You know what discourages me to not study hard? Blame it on my previous result. It's soooo not motivating. I swear, the whole class got like As and high Bs. And me? I think I just bring the whole class's Average GPA down. Ok, not only me. But still... Sigh...

Everyone seemed to have a forte in whatever they are doing. But me? Sigh...

I should have taken something I like instead of following with the flow of popularity. I should have taken some designing course even though there's not much future in it. But at least, I get to enjoy what i'm doing if I were to take that. Just because I have to get a proper job and impress my parents, I had to give up my interest.

I swear, I regret not taking something I like.

Sigh, not use mulling over it.

GODDD DAMMMIITTTTT! I swear i could just tear these papers into million pieces and throw it up into the sky! It's so heart-breaking and frustrating!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Thank god, I'm on the road to recovery. I still do get the giddy spells though. And I feel lethargic just after one hour of studying. Thank you BBSS for your concerns! =)

Diy has got a date. Like finally! All the best girl! I'm as happy and excited as you are!

As for me, urrrr.... Sigh. *shrug shoulders*

Ok, looking at the dance video for the previous class (which I missed!) makes me even more depressed! How the hell can I catch up??? Gahh!

My head feels like as though someone is playing the drums inside. It goes BOOM BOOM BOOM! like as if there is no tomorrow. My gum is ballooning up like DHL Balloon. And the swell looks like as though it's going to burst any moment. I feel so cold at times, that I have to wear 2 sweaters at a time. And the only food that I can swallow is porridge and whipped potato.

I'm surprised I could survive school today. Ok, I cheated. I didn't go for PACC tutorial.

Can I bang my head on the table till it splits into 2?

Ahh! MD session killed me. I'm so tired, I could just sit here till bedtime. The session rocks. I've learnt a lot, and I've denifitely learnt a lot of tips from the seniors. I shall come for the next one too. =)

Ok, so now MD is changed to Saturday, so I have nothing much to look forward to on Mondays. Gahh! Oh shit. I have Econs test on Monday, and I can still slack now. Gahh!!!

And I have to find someone to teach me the things I missed during Hiphop. =( Or maybe I shall just forget about it.

I want my sleep. I want my bloody sleep!

I swear I could just knock my head down on the table with a loud BANG! The "sleep" at Foodcourt 4 doesn't help at all. And, I'm supposed to face IP and Econs today. Sigh.

I still cannot watch SATC. Double sigh.

I feel like missing hip hop tomorrow. I just lost interest in hip hop. And the PT sucks too. I think I'll skip the beginner's course and go for junior's one instead. I'm too tired. And hopefully, I have somone to go with for Thur's session. Oh, I skipped today's session. I can't be dancing four times a week right? I have to study too.

My eyelids are heavy.

Ok, I'm gone.

Vanne dear, cheer up kay? BBSS will be there for you. I almost cry when you cried.

I screwed PACC. Ok, shut up. I'll cry if I talk about it. Sigh.

Thank god I went for MD today. It really cheered me up. And I was laughing my ass off at my own stupidity. I swear, no wonder BBSS made me slenger no. 1. We were supposed to face the back while dancing. And in the middle of the dance, I was facing the front. And I stood at the front some more! OMG! So fucking maluuuu! Girlfriend was already laughing at me!!! And... there was this leap that we were supposed to do, and I landed like a dinosaur!!!! Gahh!

I think I got my retribution for calling ChorChuan dinosaur. Sigh.

Daniel: Were you from malay dance? (while pressing my toes like mad)
Me: Umm... no. (ok, fine. I lied. I took Malay dance in primary school)
Daniel: Then where are you from? (still pressing. but there's no effect on me at all =P)
Me: Umm... don't know. (ok stupid. I just don't want him to know that I have MD background. haha)

Ok. I'm tired. And there is lecture at 9am tomorrow. Ggggaaahhhhh!

Ok, a quickie from me.

CIP rocks. Maybe because people around me rock. Haha. We realised that the old folk's home is for mentally retard?!?! Scary like shit. I swear, I feel like a prisoner there. And they are so sweet to prepare banner and gave us a warm welcome as well as refreshments. I feel so like a VIP! Apeks rock lahhh!

Walking to the Home and walking back from Home is my favourite part. There was a huge grass patch that we crossed plus wind blowing our hair... My, such a romantic feeling. Zu says she felt like a supermodel. Haha. Right girl.

I realised one thing after 1 term with the class. The guys in our class are gays. Haha. They acted so affectionately(?) to wards each other in the train, and I swear people around us would think that they are gays! Haha. No offence guys!

Chorchuan didi and Yang2 are officially in BBSS. Chorchuan is -1 and Yang2 is -2. haha. Being the president rocks man! =)

I laughed so hard today, that I almost peed in my pants. Gahh!

Tomorrow is a weekday. =(

And on top of that, I have EC and PACC tests tomorrow. Babi lahhhh!

Ok, I admit, my posts have gotten rather depressing lately. Haha. I lead a sad life at home. So when I'm at home updating my blog, I'll feel depress. Which explains my depressing posts.

I'm home alone. And yeah, it's getting rather scary. Mom's gone to JB (without me! Can you believe it? Without me! But still, even if she asks me to tag along, I won't follow. Because paper is in 2 days time!), brother and sister disappeared (as usual. *rolls eyes*) and Dad is working OT. Gahh.

I finally watched Mr Fighting just now. After missing 3 saturdays. I'm in love with Taiwanese shows. Or is it HK? Ah, whatever.

I seriously don't know what else to revise. Sigh.

Ok btw, big thanks to BBSS for the concern! Huge kisses to everyone! <3333

I've got to run. I feel like shitting. Again.

Ok here's another post for the day again. Yeah, I have no mood to do anything, and when I tried to re-do PACC tutorial 7, the words seemed to be swimming right before my eyes.

I watched Just Follow Law just now and god, it's fucking hilarious. Ok, I admit, local movie productions are not that bad after all. And yeah, it's a little racism, but hilarious. I still have another DVD to watch. But probably tomorrow. It's getting rather late, and I need to catch up on my sleep.

Shayne Ward's songs rocks. Thank you Mummy for introducing it to me. It's so jiwangs giler.

I tried my best to not think about it. But everything I do, I'll think of you. I even prayed, real hard, that you'll come back. But God is not answering. Maybe there's a reason behind it. There's always a reason behind everything. But it's alright. I won't give up praying, boy. Because you are worth the wait.

Sigh.

Today's lectures was funnn! Yeah, surprisingly. I sat beside Farrina the whole time, and I kept laughing till I teared. Gahh! And now, I'm having cramps due to too much laughing. Thank god for BBSS, or I'll just stone there for the whole 3 hours!

Ok, paper is in 3 days time. And there is still CIP on Sunday (Perfect timing or what?! Read: Sarcasm). On top of that, projects are due very very soon. And yeah, I'm freaking out!!!!

Ok, chill. I'm going to watch DVDs tonight. And I'll start revising tomorrow morning, at 9am.

Reading Vanne's and Kiwi's posts is so depressing. Yeah, I'm having the same problem too... We shall remain strong. We can do this.

Why do I feel that I'm going to stay boyfriend-less for the rest of my life?

I'm still dreaming. I have to wake up. Or I'll fall deeper. But, it's hard.

I still cannot accept reality. Sigh.

Today was spent doing PACC. And... Sigh. I have no confidence in this upcoming test. Wait, I don't even have any confidence in anything! Sigh.

Why is this post getting more and more depressing?

The more I think about it, the more I refuse to accept reality. Sigh.

I have to stop thinking about it. I really have to.

I swear, my back could break from the amount of weight from my backpack, laptop AND shoebag. Gahh! I was like battling for a seat at the train on the way back home just now. The aunties and uncles were like staring at me. =P

Today's practise was the worst ever. I could just die there. I seriously need to improve on my stamina. Sigh.

Still debating to go for MD session tomorrow. I shall see how. If FOM kills my mood AGAIN, then I'll go straight home.

I'm too tired to study PACC and Econs now. Sigh.

It's only 4.40pm and I'm getting very sleepy. I was practically dozing off during Econs lecture. I totally forgot to drink my Nescafe. I'm tempted to drink now but for me, it's strictly no caffeine (Coke is allowed by the way...) after 2pm. Sigh. I just couldn't focus.

Yesterday's MD practise was fun! Daniel didn't come so the seniors took over. It officially ended at 7.30pm. But we stayed till 9pm. Pearl stretched me till I screamed (Well, almost!). And we ran to the back to practise our hiphop with Brian/Bryan's help. =)

Hiphop tomorrow, and I'm dreading it. I wished it rains, so we don't have to do the 10 rounds. Sigh. Please rain tomorrow. =P

Ok, got to start IP. I can do this!

I really can't take this anymore. It's so unfair. No matter how much I tried, I still failed to get what I want.

I was finishing up my ITAM and some other things just now. And I was thinking. Is the amount of effort I've put in sufficient? Or am I in the wrong track. Funny thing is, what I did and what they did is almost similar, but our results are wayy different.

Is there something I did wrong that i'm not aware of? Or are they just being unfair and biased?

Ok, so I wasted my Saturday going across the sea for some shopping. And I'm still feeling guilty! Since I haven't really start my intensive studying and my projects are not completed. Was caught in a fucking massive traffic jam for 2 hours. And idiot and rude people just refused to queue and kept cutting at the front, and the poor people at the back can't move at all. Gahh! And call yourself an educated Singaporeans. Shame on you man!

The funny thing is, in front was a car who kept giving way to the 'queue-cutters'. And then, my aunt kept complaining and showing hand signals, which I think he saw. And he went out of the car, and actually COMPLAINED that my uncle (who was driving) went too close to his bumper. We didn't hit his damn car ok! Not even one bit! But seriously, if we were to keep a far distance from them, the 'queue-cutters' would then cut our queue. And this will go on. No brain lah!

Seriously, I think I'll never drive into Johore when I get my license (if I get one, that is!). It's so fucking scary and all the cars are like almost hitting one another. Gahh! TP, do something!

This time round, we didn't do much shopping. But it's okay, because I still have clothes that I haven't wear to school. =-P

I swear, the Mats there are super scary. I'll never go across alone man...

Ok, she told me to mention her in my blog. Hello to NUR FARRINA BTE ABDUL GHAFAR aka Mummy aka Slenger no. 3 aka wife of fabregas (not!) aka farry aka bayi ikan aka... What else huh? BBSS, if I missed out any, please tell me. =)

I'm sleepy and I'm hungry. But I don't want to eat. Because if I'm full, I can't sleep. Haiz. Like what Zu says, hidop susah, mati lagi susah!

Alrito. I'm gone.

I don't know what went wrong. I really don't. No matter how much effort I've put in, it just turn out wrong. It's not fair. It's just not fair. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of putting in my best. If this continues, I'm going to stop. I really am.

Ok I better stop moaning on and on. I don't want to be pessimistic.

BBSS keeps calling me Tweety Bird. *in a Tweety Bird tone which never fails to make Zu laugh* I thought I saw a pussycat! Ok. That's very very very random. Haha... I'm cuter than Tweety Bird ok! But I think I look more like a chipmunk. Haha.

I love BBSS. They are the ones who make my days better especially on Fridays. =)

I can't believe this. I can't believe it. All our effort to get a fucking A goes down the drain just like that. We put is sooooo much effort and had sleepless nights, and this is what we got. A fucking C which is veryyy close to a B. You know what made it worse? When we found out it was marked based on our previous presentation. Yes, we did rather well for the previous one. And yes, we admit this time, it was not as good. But but, just because our expectations is a little higher doesn't mean we deserve this grade.

You know what? We will screw you. We will do everything, models of Giordano or even steal the manuquin from Giordano, all the surveys and all the interviews, just to get an A back. Because we know we deserve it.

Ok, I did cry in class just now. Fine, I admit ok!

We can do this BBSS! We'll going to screw him.

I just can't accept it. I really can't.

I so so so didn't regret going dance today... Kan kan ronah?

Gastric pain is killing me. I ate half a portion of rice at 2pm till now. Oh and McGriddles at 10am. I just ate, but the pain is still there. Or is it just a muscle cramp because of of sit-ups?

I so so so need to start focusing on my studies... Sigh.

In IT class right now. And I feel like shitting. Gahh!

I didn't get enough sleep again. It must be the disturbance. Sigh. It keeps coming back. Hopefully the person will come on Friday and shoo them away. I need my sleep, you stupid evil spirits. Gahh!

Ahh! Assignments are piling up and tests are coming in 2 weeks time.

I'll be going home before dance. Because I can't find anyone to accompany me. Gahh!

Overslept today because I had only 5 hours of sleep last night. And I have no idea why. My insomnia pattern is returning. I went into bed at 11.30pm last night and managed to sleep at only 2.30am. Now, I feel like I'm floating and I can just sleepwalk. I'm not the kind of person who can managed through the da with less than 6 hours of sleep. I need my sleep.

And the flu bug attacked me again today. Lemsip doesn't seem to work this time. I was planning to revise FOM, but because of the stupid flu and lack of sleep, I could'nt concentrate. I feel lke my head is about to burst any moment. =(

To make matters worse, there's dance tomorrow. Sigh.

ITAM refused to give me an A. Again. I swear, if this happens again the next time, I'm going to change my course. I've thought about it. Sigh. Either that, or I'll take up tuition, which means I must starting earning bucks soon. Sigh. Money means a lot in this world...

I swear I could just cry right now.